Starting to Look Inside

One day after a lot of frictions over a longer period of time, I recognized my own jealousy, which was surprising as I had never considered myself a jealous person, but that was because I had measured myself to the standard of ordinary people. Even some fellow practitioners tried to heat up things by saying one particular person would be wrong instead of us, trying to collectively indulge our own attachments.

When I finally realized I was the one always making trouble for that person who happened to be in a responsible position, the situation immediately improved. As I looked at his positive side, he became instantly kind to me and frictions were massively reduced, almost disappearing. When I admitted to my jealousy and said I had actually looked inside for the cause of trouble, I noticed some other fellow practitioners were reluctant to agree with what I had realized about myself and kept insisting it was his problem. I responded by saying that I would take the Fa as Teacher. It is my personal understanding that whatever problem we come across and no matter what the situation, it is likely to be linked to our own attachments. I have found myself more frequently in situations in which I was constantly being criticized. Though it was hard not to become upset by it, I did learn to become more patient as fellow practitioners pointed out my attachments according to their perspectives.

Recently we have begun communicating more often with each other using various means and have learned to be more open to one another in a more dignified way, thereby resolving a lot of misunderstandings and miscommunications. This may have laid a good foundation to have a more solid environment where we will mature and learn to have the utmost of respect for each other and learn how to cooperate even better.