My Attachment of Jealousy

When reading the section “Jealousy” in Zhuan Falun in the past, I found it ridiculous that the senior monk was jealous of the junior monk, since that was not the behaviour of a practitioner at all. I also did not think it had anything to do with me. Therefore, although I studied the Fa again and again, I did not realize that my attachment of jealousy was already very obvious.

At my workplace, I am a supervisor and another employee is a Dafa practitioner as well. We often share understandings and get along with each other very well. It is known at my workplace that I am very good at writing. This practitioner also has some ability in writing documents, but is not as good as I am since he does not have many opportunities to practice. However, he has written many excellent articles to validate the Fa. Although I have been writing articles these years to validate the Fa as well, the number of articles I have written and their significance are far below those of that practitioner. Therefore, on the one hand, I admired his skills, but on the other hand, I felt uneasy, thinking that each of us has our own unique strengths. However, the more I felt this way, the more other practitioners talked about this, and they even asked me whose articles were better.

Although on the surface I said that practitioner’s articles were better than mine, I did not actually think that way. Whenever that practitioner told me that many people liked his articles and he received a lot of good feedback, I felt jealous, just like the feelings of the senior monk toward the junior monk. However, back then I did not realize my attachment of jealousy but instead thought that practitioner had an attachment of showing-off.

My attachment of jealousy was seen in other aspects as well. Although I knew practitioners should not pay much attention to money, I still had bad feelings when seeing my employees have higher salaries than me. When my wife talked about how rich other people were, I told her that those material possessions were temporary and would be useless in the future, implying that I was better than other people. With this kind of mentality, it is hard to save sentient beings.

The attachment of jealousy is very filthy and it is a very sensitive topic. Therefore, practitioners normally do not talk about it. Here, I am exposing it so that I can completely eliminate it. We need to become mature in cultivation and treat practitioners and sentient beings with compassion and a pure heart. In this way, we will be able to fulfil the mission of a Dafa disciple.