I Am Not Afraid Anymore

I started practising Falun Dafa in 1998. Before I started to cultivate I was very timid, so much so that I could never stay at home by myself. When I was young, I was always with my mother. My mother stayed with me in the evening when I did my homework. After I got married, I always asked someone to stay with me when my husband was out of town to work. After the sun went down, I did not dare to leave the house. After I started to practise Falun Dafa, I gradually became bolder.

Since the persecution of Falun Gong started in July 20, 1999, I have been working on various thing to let more people know the truth about Falun Gong and the persecution. At the end of 2000 I went to Beijing to peacefully and lawfully appeal for justice to be returned to Falun Gong. I left home at one o'clock at night. I crossed the Songhua River in the dark. That was the first time for me to walk outside at night. With Master's protection I crossed the river successfully. I firmly believed there was no risk as long as my heart contained Falun Gong's principles of, "Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance".

I remembered the first time I posted the words, "Falun Dafa is Good" on a utility pole. I went out in the middle of the night. I was looking around and my heart beat very fast. I thought, "I am a Falun Gong practitioner and I must let people know the truth." This is a righteous thought. I went with another practitioner the second time. After I finished the posting on two utility poles, I came to the third one. In the middle of posting the words, "Falun Dafa is Good," my fellow practitioner said, "Someone is coming." I saw that two people were coming. I was so scared that I dropped my materials and ran away. When we got home it was almost the midnight. I regretted that I did not finish posting those words. Was I so afraid? At that time we did not yet know Master's Fa-rectification verses and did not know to send forth righteous thoughts. I recited Hong Yin. I was reciting Master's poem "Mighty Virtue":

Dafa does not leave the body,
The heart harbours Zhen-Shan-Ren;
In the world is a great Arhat,
Spirits and ghosts fear greatly.
(Hong Yin, English Translation Version B)

I suddenly realised that spirits and ghosts fear me greatly, what am I afraid of? I left my home alone, stepping into deep snow. I found the place where I dropped my materials. I found them and started to post those words again. I did not go back home until I had used up all my materials.

Since then, I have never been afraid again. When my attachment of fear shows up, I use righteous thoughts to eliminate it. In these years I have posted words in support of Falun Dafa anywhere possible in our area. In the beginning, when we finished our tasks, people who had been influenced by the anti-Falun Gong propaganda of the Chinese Communist Party would cover them up, but we would post them again. Thus, our righteous thoughts and righteous actions helped stop the persecution. Now when we post the words, "Falun Dafa is Good," and "Truthfulness, Compassion and Forbearance are Good," no one will cover it any more. As long as we can study the Falun Gong teachings well, we can do well the three things which Master has asked us to do.

Some practitioners still do not step forward to let people learn the truth about Falun Gong. Is that because you have the attachment of fear? As long as we study the Falun Gong teachings well and truly believe in our Master our righteous thoughts will be stronger and stronger and the attachment of fear will disappear. Master said:

"The fact is, those who can't step forward, regardless of the excuse, are concealing fear. Yet for cultivators, fear or lack thereof proves [one's] humanity or divinity, and it is what differentiates cultivators from ordinary people. It is something that a cultivator must face, and the biggest human attachment that a cultivator must remove." (Teacher's Commentary "Study the Fa Well, and Getting Rid of Attachments is Not Hard")

My fellow practitioners, please put down the attachment of fear, and step forward! How many sentient beings are waiting for us to save them!