My Cultivation Experience

Respectful greetings to Teacher! Greetings to all fellow practitioners!

After July 20th, 1999, when the persecution against Falun Gong officially began, Teacher arranged for us to transfer from personal cultivation to that of cultivating in the Fa-rectification period. This is the biggest honour among all living beings of the cosmos, and it is also an unprecedented event that will never happen again. During this period of time, I have appealed to the provincial government for justice for Falun Gong, have gone to Beijing, lost my job due to persecution, become homeless to avoid the persecution, and experienced persecution after the cable television interception in Changchun City on March 5th, 2002 [this event refers to Falun Dafa practitioners successfully broadcasting programs .highlighting the truth about Falun Dafa over the cable television network]. I have experienced more than six years of validating Dafa¹ through many hardships. Every experience is the process of letting go of the attachment of life and death; each experience is the process of negating the old forces, each is the process of giving up oneself. At the same time, each experience is the process of firmly believing in Teacher, validating Dafa, assimilating to the Fa² and choosing to be a god. Every experience is the process of thoroughly remolding oneself again and every experience is to be closer to home - the course of returning.

Part 1 - I Choose Whatever Dafa Needs

After the March 5th cable TV signal interception occurred in Changchun in 2002, probably the only two truth-clarification materials production sites remaining in Changchun were destroyed in July. However, Changchun Dafa practitioners were not suppressed. The Fa was already rooted in the hearts of us Changchun practitioners, the brutal persecution after the March 5th incident could only quicken the destruction of the evil. Changchun Dafa practitioners' solid faith in Teacher and Dafa are indestructible. Teacher said,

"Never in history has someone who persecuted those with upright faiths ever succeeded. All of this is merely to use the evil's performance to solidify Dafa and remove cultivators' fundamental attachments so as to free cultivators from the shackles of humanness and karma. All those who have been weeded out are not true cultivators."("Coercion Cannot Change People's Hearts")

Major materials production sites were destroyed. I immediately wondered, what does this mean to us? What should I cultivate? My first thought was that I choose to do whatever Dafa needs. It is very simple: continue doing what we are doing. I thought this would also be the wish of all practitioners in Changchun.

Responsibility and mission urged me to sacredly and calmly find practitioner Q. After conversing with Q, I learnt that the practitioner who taught him how to run a truth clarification materials³ site was in a forced labour camp. But our duty-bound sense of mission was solid, like a diamond and all-conquering. We should cultivate in this way. Teacher said,

"The Fa-rectification will definitely succeed, and Dafa disciples will definitely succeed." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2004 Western U.S. Fa Conference")

First of all, we summarised the lessons according to the requirements of the Fa. Major material production sites were too visible, were under a lot of pressure, and were the focus of the evil's attention. While we were all waiting, relying on and wanting the materials, practitioners who worked at the production site were under great pressure. Meanwhile, they also needed to take care of the materials for their local areas, and several also needed to care for the needs of other areas. In addition, the invisible thoughts all practitioners sent out were to defeat the old forces. They took into consideration that the materials production site was the place that the evil paid the most attention to, but all production sites had problems after the persecution began. The pattern had already been formed. Because of these factors, practitioners at the truth clarification materials production site were consistent in Fa study in the beginning, but due to many factors and pressures, they gradually developed attachments: attachments to doing things, to material gain, the attachment of feeling special and so on. This caused them to be unable to calm down to study the Fa. All sorts of conflicts among practitioners followed, which were actually in accordance with the old forces' arrangements. Aren't these problems caused by Dafa practitioners' hearts? Of course those practitioners had their loopholes, but they also endured and sacrificed for us.

According to the requirements of the Minghui/Clearwisdom website, materials production sites should be broken up into parts, blossom out all over, yet maintain contact with each other - a "great way without form," but there is one body. This blossoming is not tangible, but through it, every practitioner's heart truly emerges. What's important is the process of everyone participating and saving sentient beings; this is the manifestation of every practitioner's Buddha nature after enlightening to the Fa from the heart. We had no equipment, no skills, only our hearts. Moreover, we could not stop supplying Minghui Weekly during the week of the intense persecution following the cable TV incident. Responsibility and mission strongly urged me to walk my own path in the Fa. Since then, we began to help truth clarification materials production sites blossom all over.

For a while, the material production sites sprang up everywhere like bamboo shoots after the rain. People in rural areas learnt how to use computers in four days. A 70-year-old woman learnt how to use a computer in two weeks, and then an 80-year-old senior citizen and students learnt how to use computers. I also began from zero, same as the other practitioners, knowing nothing. But we had our hearts in the Fa, we persevered in validating Dafa and saving sentient beings. Later, I knew as a matter of fact that Changchun Dafa practitioners also enlightened to the understanding that materials production sites should blossom all over. Just like Teacher told us:

"If every one of you can understand the Fa from the depths of your mind, that will truly be the manifestation of the Fa whose power knows no boundary--the reappearance of the mighty Buddha Fa in the human world!" ("Cautionary Advice" from Essentials for Further Advancement)

In the following days of sites blossoming all over, Teacher's compassionate protection manifested everywhere! We are particles of Dafa, the Fa is omnipotent, and so are we. When we truly change our human notions fundamentally, the things we do manifest the difference between a human and a god.

Regarding the widespread blossoming of materials production sites, the base point must be that a Dafa practitioner's heart is on the Fa, not on doing things, and on cultivating oneself. Whenever practitioners wanted to learn, we first shared our understandings on the Fa, to have a clear starting point, and then started teaching and learning. Moreover, we often reminded each other about our understandings of the Fa: we are cultivating. One practitioner had installed operating systems on two notebook computers, but had technical problems. So we looked inward and examined our hearts. We discovered that originally when she purchased the notebooks, she added in human things. After we found the cause of the problem, the installation problems of the notebooks were immediately solved.

Due to the destruction of a local materials production site, a practitioner from another area came to share with us about this issue (this practitioner did not know how to produce the materials, and only did distribution). During our sharing, we found this practitioner was relatively stable in her understanding of the Fa and suitable for producing materials, so we shared understandings with her about "materials production sites blossoming everywhere." A week later, she learnt how to get on the Internet using a notebook computer. Several months after she went back to her area, she was instrumental in setting up local materials production sites everywhere. That is to say: maintaining a big truth clarification materials production site and distributing across a wide area is not the aim. Only by setting up local production sites all over can we fundamentally solve the issue of having a continuous source of truth clarification materials. However, only the genuine improvement of Dafa practitioners' hearts can guarantee the stable operation of materials production sites.

After the March 5th incident in 2002, policemen inspected key practitioners' homes one by one. At one practitioner's home, the police checked the computer, found nothing and left. Afterwards, their child came home from school, turned on the computer, and found all the Dafa materials still there. The whole family instantly made the heshi gesture to pay their respect to Teacher!

After we had been running the materials production sites for over a year, we met two practitioners who were technical experts. When they found out about our software and system setup, they were surprised, smiled and shook their heads in amazement. They just could not believe it. We actually had no delays in our production and thought we did great. This was because we had no human notions to block the smooth operation of our work. We learnt everything from scratch, and everyone filled several notebooks with notes. We did not know how to install a driver for the printer, so we asked Teacher for help, and installed it - it was like a miracle. One practitioner reinstalled an operating system on a computer for a 70-year-old lady, but forgot to install the driver for the printer. When she was using it, she could read the notes written by the practitioner for many steps of the operation, but the notes did not cover everything. So she begged Teacher: "Teacher, please help me!" When I arrived, she excitedly told me, "Teacher helped me to install it!"

There are a great many small stories of a supernatural nature, turning danger into safety. Some we may not have even yet realised. Teacher told us in Lunyu:

"'The Buddha Fa' is most profound; among all the theories in the world, it is the most intricate and extraordinary science. In order to explore this domain, humankind must fundamentally change its conventional thinking. Otherwise, the truth of the universe will forever remain a mystery to humankind, and everyday people will forever crawl within the boundary delimited by their own ignorance."

For several years, our experience has grown out of nothing. From knowing nothing, we moved to doing simple things, from single to multiple things, from multiple things to improvement of quality, to mastery. All of these are done through Teacher. Actually as we are all in the Fa, and as long as we comply with the cosmic characteristic, believe in Teacher and the Fa, and solidly do the three things well, then the evil will have no environment to exist. Teacher did not arrange its participation in the Fa-rectification: "Whoever touches it commits a sin." (" Teaching the Fa at the Great Lakes Fa Conference in North America") Therefore, the only thing Dafa practitioners have a role in is saving people.

Regardless of whether it was cold or hot, or whether the evildoers were closing in on sensitive dates, I moved quickly on the path of saving people. I often thought of Teacher's poem:

Righteous Thought, Righteous Action

Great enlightened beings are not afraid of hardship
[Their] will is cast of diamond
Life or death, [they] have no attachment
Forthright and broad-minded on the road of Fa-rectification
(Hongyin II) (Draft translation)

Part 2 - Cultivating Myself in Coordination Work

Truth-clarification materials production sites springing up everywhere created an environment and laid a foundation for Fa study groups to spring up everywhere as well. The coordination issue that came along with it was also an essential part of Fa-rectification period cultivation; to achieve consistent coordination as one body and to create an environment for improving as a whole is an issue involving everybody cultivating together. Everyone is a coordinator; this is a requirement for Fa-rectification period Dafa disciples. The coordination in the process of forming one body was different than during the period when materials sites were springing up everywhere. The cultivation content was different, the attachments exposed were different, and the requirements were also different.

1. Taking the Fa as the Teacher

In the cultivation process of forming one body, the issue of "taking the Fa as the teacher" was something I recalled with eternal gratitude in the coordination work. In Fa-rectification period cultivation, we often hear fellow practitioners mention "taking the Fa as the teacher." Just as its name implies, this involves weighing things according to Dafa's standard. However, it is not that easy in cultivation.

After a short period of time, we realised the necessity of breaking through the gaps between practitioners caused by the old forces, and rebuilding the destroyed cultivation environment. We must not leave even one practitioner behind. Our goals were to help more practitioners truly step out in the Fa, creating a cultivation environment for collective advancement in the Fa-rectification period, and aiming at doing the three things better. This required continuous sharing with practitioners. The Practitioners Exchange Insights and Experiences section on the Minghui/Clearwisdom website published an article about practitioners in a certain nearby area advancing and improving together. The article shook me at a time when we needed it most. Practitioners from that area came to visit us. After they introduced their Fa-rectification format and overall situation, we reminded each other that we must take the Fa as master at our most critical moments, and walk our own paths according to the requirements of Dafa and the present situation.

Although we did not want to imitate that other area, in the overall coordination and my thoughts, I considered several experiences from the Practitioners Exchange Insights and Experiences section on Minghui as guidance articles. In fact, I already admired the nearby area, I read about on the website and was taking it as a model. Subconsciously and to different degrees, other coordinators also had the same insight on this issue. One person, two people, soon everybody thought the same way. Wouldn't this push that area to a dead end? That area soon had an accident, and I realised it had been caused by the problems in our hearts. This was a lesson that could not be ignored. There are no role models in cultivation. There is only solid cultivation taking the Fa as master.

We learnt to take the Fa as the teacher after suffering a huge loss in this incident. I will remember it forever. I found my fundamental attachment - dealing with our progress as one body with human notions, not weighing things according to the Fa.

As a matter of fact, whether a practitioner (or an area) does well can only be weighed according to the Fa. If they truly cultivate well, from the basis of the Fa, it is not because they are good people, but because they have studied the Fa well. They have complied with the requirements of the Fa so they can do well, and the manifestations of the Fa can be displayed. There is nothing without the Fa. However if when you try to find an answer, you don't look at it from the Fa's perspective, but simply look at how others behave at the human level, ignoring the factors of the Fa, you are actually taking humans as the master, not the Fa. Cultivation is serious. It is very important to take the Fa as master at all times to avoid losses. This is what Fa-rectification period Dafa disciples should do.

I did not take the Fa as the teacher on this issue. Looking at the root of my attachment, I thought myself infallible. The essence behind this mentality was regarding myself as important, validating myself and ignoring the Fa, and allowing notions formed in the evil party's culture long ago to control my thoughts. Where did I put the Fa at that time? I already had one foot over the edge of the cliff! It was very dangerous. Only by studying the Fa well can I achieve sobriety from the Fa, can I weigh issues with righteous Fa-principles soberly and comprehensively, and not be driven astray. Therefore, "taking the Fa as the teacher" is a big lesson for me.

2. Great Cultivation Way without Form

A "great cultivation way without form" and a loose administration is the cultivation way of Falun Dafa. Actually everyone is a coordinator. Just like Teacher's gong, someone does this while the other does that in Fa-rectification; everyone is walking on their own path arranged by Teacher, and everyone must enlighten to what one should. Nobody can replace another. Everything has been arranged; we can act according to this divine arrangement. Whatever project we do, we are cultivating, someone must be the coordinator: we have an idea, use the Fa to judge, and if it complies with the Fa, then we can go ahead; this is what we need to understand.

Teacher said:

"For Dafa disciples as a whole, in the process of validating the Fa, when you work together in concert, the Fa power is great. Whether you're doing things as a group or doing things individually, what you're doing is the same kind of thing, and that's what we mean by one entity. You're all clarifying the truth, sending righteous thoughts, and studying the Fa, so the specifics of the things you're doing are different but the division of roles is orderly, together there's a form, and separated there are particles." ("Explaining the Fa During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference")

Although I dislike formality, I greatly admired the one-body formation in areas that have relatively better Fa-rectification situations. While I hoped we could do better Fa-rectification work, in fact I was already pursuing formality and buried the hidden danger, treating Dafa work with human notions. I brought everyday people's working ideas, methods and coordination learnt from the party's evil culture into Dafa work, and regarded cultivation as work. Luckily, large numbers of practitioners steadily measured every step according to the Fa, showing their solid cultivation on the Fa. From this, I found my gaps on this issue. I realised that nobody can represent the whole, nobody can control the whole, because one body represents Dafa practitioners' hearts but doesn't mean all have the same form. Together there is a form, and separated there are particles. I am just one of the particles.

I enlightened to the understanding that the Fa contains everything, and there is no need to factiously do anything We should simply follow Teacher's requirement, allow nature to take its course, and move in the natural automatic mechanism of the Fa - everything is in it. However, as a coordinator, I must, together with fellow practitioners, create a solid and genuine cultivation environment in the Fa-rectification period, lead practitioners to take the Fa as the teacher, understand things based on the Fa, improve on the Fa as a whole, and do the three things well. These are the true manifestations and functions of a coordinator. However, a "great cultivation way without form but exists as a whole" is the need of Fa-rectification in the cosmos; all Dafa practitioners need to understand this.

3. Letting Go of Myself

When I positioned myself correctly in Dafa cultivation, letting go of myself was not an issue. When I clearly realised based on the Fa that we are one body, I no longer emphasised myself. At this point, it was as if I took a thick shell from my body, and I became so relaxed. I suddenly understood: Teacher had actually arranged everything for us; we just need to cultivate ourselves.

After I had done coordination work for a while, I gradually realised I had an attachment of feeling special among others, and factiously arranged Fa-rectification work. I was validating myself. If you mentioned one body, it meant us, practitioners as a whole; but that attachment to myself was visibly expanding. It manifested in dictating allocation of work, putting more value on my own opinion, not acknowledging the one body (intentionally or unintentionally), and protecting the "one body" established by myself. Actually, I was essentially protecting myself. After I enlightened to the issue of "taking the Fa as the teacher" and to the concept of a "great way without form," the problem of letting go of myself was readily solved.

I remember a fellow practitioner wrote an experience sharing called "Oneself is the Adversary of One Body." Being capable of letting go of oneself in coordination is the basis of coherent coordination as a whole, while studying the Fa well and looking inwards is the guarantee of letting go of oneself. Recently I have come to admire very much those practitioners who are unnoticeable, unknown to the public but who are quietly doing the three things with great diligence.

Part 3 - Rectifying Myself by Looking Inward

Teacher said in Zhuan Falun:

"Without knowing the Fa at high levels, one cannot practise cultivation. Without cultivating one's inner self and one's xinxing, one cannot increase gong. These are the two reasons."

Since I started to practise Falun Gong in April 1995, I have been solidly cultivating according to the Fa principles, especially with regards to the attachments to fame, self-interest and emotion or sentiments. I have thereby established a strong foundation in personal cultivation for Fa-rectification cultivation.

Before I became a Falun Gong practitioner, I was disgusted by the interpersonal relationships in Chinese society. Such things did not interest me. It was like an invisible meat chopper that brutally mangled people and caused great pain. After I started practising Dafa, I first off abandoned my notion of interpersonal relationships formed postnatally, whether in society or at home. I gave up human notions, and instead chose to be a god. As a result, without this notion, I felt a layer of crust come off of my thoughts. My body and mind were so relaxed. I required myself to comply with the cosmic characteristics of "Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance" at all times. Not only was my work very efficient, my achievements were also outstanding. Hence I was praised by cadres and colleagues alike. My work environment became peaceful and loose. My thoughts also became simpler, relaxed and not distracted. I simply wanted to comply with the cosmic characteristics and be more than just a good person. Of course this also requires contribution and sacrifice, exactly as written in Zhuan Falun, where Teacher says that cultivation is, "more difficult than anything of ordinary people." However, it was really a kind of self-upgrade to free myself from human notions. More accurately, it was a rebirth.

While the everyday things could not touch me, a conflict came up among practitioners. It manifested as a conflict between us and practitioner A, especially between practitioner A and me. I considered myself as having a good foundation in personal cultivation. As long as I looked inwards, no problem could turn me back. Forbearance! I thought, when I look inwards, she will change. When I had good thoughts, I could remain kind and tolerant. Whenever I felt my endurance reached its limit, I could no longer remain kind and tolerant. It seemed as if I could tolerate my own careless mistakes, but lost patience with other practitioners.

This situation lasted for a while, and even involved the energy of practitioners in other areas. I realised that I must have problems, and must solve them. I found that I had taken advantage of the Fa, once there was the slightest sign of trouble, I hurried to look inside myself. Sometimes the attachments were frightened away but not essentially given up; otherwise we would not have this problem.

Practitioners close to me sat down together and seriously looked inside. This problem had lasted so long because we had already formed a notion about the issue and it was controlling our thinking; not only mine, but a group of practitioners. Through Fa study and sharing, plus seriously looking inwards, we found that our previous looking inward was conditional. Therefore, we were actually looking outside. It was not accidental to have this thinking pattern for so long. First, we had a fundamental attachment in our minds and brought it into Dafa cultivation. We thought Dafa cultivation was a pure land, away from worldly affairs, so we could cast off all interpersonal fighting done for fame and gain. Hence, initially we regarded this phenomenon as a reflection of ordinary people's bad habits that were present everywhere in today's society, so we looked inward with the everyday people's mentality of being above the matter. This made me believe that I was right, that I had passed through the personal cultivation period. I thought "I have already looked inside, so she should change." Actually this mentality had formed an attachment. It was this formed notion that kept us from truly understanding the Fa from within the Fa, and we even felt in our hearts that it was unfair.

Teacher said in "A Dialogue with Time" from Essentials for Further Advancement:

Master: There are also such people among veteran disciples. And the most outstanding evidence of that is that they always compare themselves with humans and with their own past, but fail to examine themselves with the requirements of the Fa at different levels.

Divine Being: These problems have already become very serious. It would be good if they could manage to search within themselves for the things that they have been able to find in others.

Everything is caused by my own heart. I looked inside and completely dissected myself. I found that I still retained an evil element of the CCP's culture and have postnatal notions. I think highly of myself. I think I am great and competent. I like to hear only good words about me. I like to compete and win, never looking at my own problems in a big way. I'm over-confident. I hold myself above other practitioners, and only conditionally listen to different opinions. I have a strong attachment to obtaining approval. When jealousy emerges, it is ugly. Superficially I have hypocrisy from the evil party culture. I am narrow-minded, and am the type of strong woman popular in the deceptive culture of the CCP.

When I wrote this part, I heard new things about myself. I felt like I'd been hit with a sledgehammer. The feeling overwhelmed me. I have been practising for nearly eleven years, and considered myself to be solid in my personal cultivation. But when pain came and struck me, especially when it struck my stubborn human notions, I collapsed at the first blow. I felt as if an invisible talon was stubbornly holding me. Enduring the pain adds more to the disaster. I struggle. I suffer. I feel I am going to collapse! A voice wails, "You already have a mass of cuts and bruises. You do not have to dig further or suffer more!" In pain, I beg Teacher. It seems to be better. My divine side requests that I examine myself again: touch the thing that I fear to touch the most. I catch it: it is "fame," the attachment of hoping to be recognised; it is still fame - the fame of a cultivator, the attachment of hoping not to be denied. To care about it, pay too much attention to it, that's it! Like a stubborn rock being turned over after so long. If not dealt with at this level, it immediately goes to protect the next level, like an old slippery thing protecting itself with instinct. Today I completely expose myself. I sent out a strong wish from the bottom of my heart: Teacher! I don't want it! Here I instantly took off layer upon layer of the shell, and my heart relaxed and became calm.

Teacher mentioned about looking inwards:

"If a person can do that, I'd say that on this path--on this path of cultivation--and for the eternity of his existence, nothing can stop him. It's truly the case." ("Lecture at the Conference in Singapore") (Draft translation)

My previous base point was expecting others to change, but I did not want to change myself. When I adjusted my point of view based on the Fa, I now have a different way of viewing the problem. Instead of looking at others, I no longer care who he is. Regardless of who he is, there must be something for me to cultivate from his suggestion. I should not be ambiguous. His divine side is clear, and what he touches is the part that I fear to be touched the most. It is not my true self, otherwise, I wouldn't be moved. It can now truly be "the Buddha-light illuminates everywhere and rectifies all abnormalities." What I protected were my notions and my attachments, the substances that fear to be exposed the most. Actually I was protecting myself. When I changed my base point, I had an essential breakthrough in examining myself. Daring to negate oneself with a cultivator's righteous thoughts, even if I negate it with a mass of bruises and have nothing left, only the most inborn trueness will be revealed.

On the path of cultivation, no matter what kind of different opinions you hear, it is all Dafa harmonising you. After you improve through harmonising, you are also harmonising the Fa. As Teacher said in "Expounding on the Fa":

"Dafa is harmonising all sentient beings, and all sentient beings are also harmonising Dafa." ("Expounding on the Fa" from Essentials for Further Advancement)

Teacher said in "Teaching the Fa at the 2004 International Fa Conference in New York":

"If you are able to step out of the reasoning and attachments of ordinary people, then you are a god."

Part 4 - Fundamentally Denying the Old Forces

In those days filled with red horror during the "March 5th" incident in 2002, I became homeless and destitute to avoid persecution. I had a dream one day. In the big yard of a hotel in Changchun, a man was making gestures and making a pre-battle mobilisation report. A woman with short hair, wearing an army uniform from the Yan'an period, was also waving her arms and yelling commands, moving forces and arranging for battle, saying: "Enforce Yan'an Plan No. 8." Many brigades of fully armed soldiers anxiously and mechanically jogged and rushed in four directions. At the same time, a big group of Dafa practitioners including me were sitting a short distance from them with our heads lowered. I angrily held my fists tight: Chinese XX Party! It devastates my heart. I wish I could crumble it in my hand!

From the mindset in the dream, it can be seen that I was dealing with the persecution with human notions. However, after I read Teacher's "Touring North America to Teach the Fa," I enlightened that there are two paths in front of us. One is the path returning to one's true self in Fa-rectification period cultivation. This is the path arranged by Teacher. The other one is the path of destruction that is thoroughly arranged by the old forces. By understanding the Fa principles, I was forged by "Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance." It is my historical wish to walk on the path arranged by Teacher, to firmly refuse to follow the old force path. All of sudden, I felt the old forces collapse, and its path also disappeared.

Teacher told us:

"We negate even the very emergence of the old forces and everything that they've arranged; we don't even acknowledge their existence. We're fundamentally negating all of their things, and all of, and only, the things you do while negating and getting rid of them is mighty-virtue." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2004 Chicago Conference")

During the March 5th incident in 2002, my younger sister could not find me, so she found a fortune teller. My sister is not a practitioner. The fortune teller said, "Alas! This person has no home." I was clearly aware the old forces had systematically arranged my cultivation. They attempted to arrest me and take me to a brainwashing centre in 2001, leading me to homelessness, my illegal arrest on March 5th, 2002, an attempt at abduction in 2003, the blacklist...and so on. Yet, they did not succeed because I do not acknowledge them! I have none of these things in my true life.

Well then, what is negating the old forces? After I read, "Teaching the Fa at the 2002 Fa Conference in Philadelphia, U.S.A." I understood that negating the old forces is to do things according to the requirements of the Fa. I enlightened to the understanding that I should not be destitute. I should go home to validate Dafa, negate the old forces, and not acknowledge their arrangements. The next day, I returned home.

Negating the old force arrangements must be complete and fundamental. The evil has no connection with us. The Fa-rectification did not arrange its participation. Whoever interferes with Fa-rectification commits sins. However, if we are not to be taken advantage of due to long-term existing human notions, the precondition is that we must not have loopholes. As long as the persecution has not ended, the evil will exist.

The recent persecution of practitioners in a certain nearby area shocked me a lot. The bloody lesson left me with many thoughts. The incident is more severe than any previous experience I've had in six years of persecution. What's the cause of such severe persecution today while the evil has been massively eliminated? What should we cultivate? What shortcoming, loophole or hidden trouble do we still have? Am I in the Fa? What's the direction as a whole? Such a big destructive power, where are our responsibilities?

I clearly realised that this persecution is not humans against humans, it is the battle between good and evil in other dimensions. It is about unconditionally examining oneself, looking for one's shortcomings, one's loopholes, fundamental attachments, letting go of all human notions, and so on. It is about eliminating hidden trouble, not leaving any space for the evil. Meanwhile, I sent out a steadfast thought: even if we have loopholes, it has nothing to do with evil. Firmly believe in Teacher and Dafa. Keep our characters in compliance with the requirements of the Fa. Everything of mine is in Teacher's arrangement. Teacher said,

"I am rooted in the universe. If anyone can harm you, he or she would be able to harm me. Put simply, that person would be able to harm this universe." (Zhuan Falun)

Part 5 - A Life Lived for Others

A fellow practitioner said, "Writing experience sharing articles is like undergoing surgery." Indeed, I have deep feelings about it. Leave the good things and remove the bad things. Completely clear things away, like removing a tumour. Once again be reborn and return to one's true self. Moreover, it is easy to write about those areas where we have cultivated well on the Fa. It is so pure and comfortable. Where you get stuck or still have a problem, it is uncomfortable to write about it. Therefore we are cultivating, not simply writing the experience sharing reports.

As a cultivator, I often ask myself: "Are you a genuine practitioner? Can you give up everything for sentient beings? Have you realised the sacred mission of a Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple? Do you realise the Fa-rectification period has come to the final period? Are you really anxious to save sentient beings? Are you truly worried for sentient beings?"

Speaking honestly, the heart of following Teacher home is solid and unchangeable. However, in cultivating selflessness, considering others first, and living for others according to the standards of the Fa, my heart is not pure. To put it another way, I have not made eternal, natural and essential changes.

Experiencing more than six years of validating the Fa through hardships, I have clearly realised that what we do and how much we do is not important. Instead, what Teacher wants us to harmonise is whether we achieve the requirements of Fa-rectification period Dafa disciples in every experience and process; whether we are truly selfless and consider others first; whether we truly offer salvation to sentient beings and live for others, and whether we fulfil our historic wishes and achieve the standards of the new cosmos.

Note:

1. Dafa: The same Dafa as in Falun Dafa, translates as 'Great Law'.
2. Fa: Law or principle, the teachings in Falun Gong.
3. Clarifying the Truth: Because of the persecution in China and the unrelenting hate campaign carried out by China's state-controlled media, Falun Gong practitioners have been actively "clarifying the truth" -- explaining to the public the facts about Falun Gong and exposing the persecution. Truth clarification activities include face-to-face conversations with people, posting notices and posters, handing out flyers, and hanging banners. Outside of China, where Falun Gong is freely practised, practitioners further expose the persecution through anti-torture reenactments, art exhibits, Internet websites, books, magazines, newspapers, movies and letter writing. The goal of clarifying the truth is to help people understand Falun Gong, to dispel the lies of the communist regime in China and to raise public support to end the persecution. (Variations: "clarifying the truth", "truth clarifying", "truth-clarifying", "truth clarification", "truth-clarification", "clarifying the facts", "clarified the truth", and "clarified the facts")