Cultivation Is Not Just Actively Exposing the Persecution

Today I want to share with you a specific problem that I met in the past few years of cultivation and my understanding about it. I hope that my experience can help other practitioners with similar problems to improve on this issue.

Since I started my cultivation three years ago, I started to work on some Fa-rectification projects, especially media projects, the reason being that I am young and have more flexible schedules than many other practitioners. As the Fa-rectification makes it way forward, we are having more and more projects in San Diego. Because we don't have many practitioners here, I naturally began to be involved in more and more projects. As a result I spent more and more time on different projects, and less and less time on Fa-studying the Falun Gong teachings (Fa) and practising the exercises. From dawn to dusk, I was busy with projects. It seems like time is still not enough even though I spent all day doing the projects.

Like this, besides school and work, Fa-rectification projects became my cultivation path. Even though I knew this was not right, I didn't do anything to change it. I was pleased with being busy on projects. In a word, I acknowledged that doing projects was my cultivation path.

Actually, by doing this, I acknowledged the arrangements of the old forces. This obviously is not arranged and wanted by Master. Master always emphasised Dafa disciples should do three things well. Only after you do well in three things, can you improve. The first thing is to study Fa and do well in our personal cultivation. If we don't do well in our personal cultivation, there is no mighty virtue and effects in things we do. We can't even save sentient beings. Then it really means nothing. It's just like an ordinary person doing Dafa work. What he gets is not mighty virtue and an elevation in your level, but blessings in the future. Further, if you don't pay attention to personal cultivation, you can't even do well in projects.

Because I didn't spend enough time for Fa study and the exercises, problems occurred.

At first, I was trapped in doing projects. I have this mentality of getting things done. When I worked on Dafa projects, I was doing projects for the sake of doing projects, not to save sentient beings. I was spun by the projects. I felt great for myself because I did a lot of things for Dafa. I was so proud of myself that I augmented my selfishness.

Secondly, because I didn't practise the exercises much, my physical body (Ben-ti) was not transformed well enough. I was always tired and drained. I was not efficient in the Falun Dafa related projects. Sometimes, I was sleepy and couldn't concentrate. I would do the same thing when I sent forth righteous thoughts.

Thirdly, because I didn't study Fa much, my understanding of the Fa is not deep. Thus, it prevented me from improving my xinxing (mind nature). Therefore, I couldn't see things straight and messed up, and when I had xinxing conflicts with other practitioners, I was upset and felt as if I was being treated unfairly. Also, I was so attached to getting things done. With a low xinxing level, when problems occurred, I would be too engrossed in the problem itself and wasn't able to look at it from a higher level. Not looking inward, I couldn't improve my xinxing for a long time.

Due to all these gaps, I was taken advantage by the old forces, which was one of the factors contributing to a severe car accident last year. The accident brought some negative impact on our local Fa-rectification projects. I realised my problems and gaps. After the accident, I intentionally studied the Fa and practised the exercises more during the recovery.

Thanks to Master's great benevolence, Falun Dafa, and support from fellow practitioners, my body recovered fully. I was able to go back to my projects. But fundamentally, I still didn't pay enough attention to Fa study and exercises. The projects just kept coming in. I was trapped again in doing things. Now I suddenly realised I should really spend more time on Fa study and exercises, improve my xinxing and increase my tolerance. Otherwise, it will be really dangerous for me.

For Fa-rectification disciples, Master combined the personal cultivation with Fa-rectification for us; so that we can improve faster. This is different from Dafa disciples who obtained Fa before 1999. Disciples who obtained the Fa after 1999 are required to manage our time better in order to lay down a good foundation for personal cultivation, as well as participate in Fa-rectification projects to clarify the truth and save sentient beings.

What Master cares about in the end is not a successful projects nor profitable Media, but whether Dafa disciples have cultivated well, how many sentient beings are saved, and whether disciples meet with the consummation requirements or not. Doing a project is not the purpose of cultivation, but rather a way or method for it. Consequently, no matter how busy you get in a project, you can't neglect your own personal cultivation. It is especially true for the disciples who obtained the Fa in the last few years.

Certainly, we shouldn't go to extremes either. Although I neglected my personal cultivation and spent all the time on projects before, I can't stop all the current projects just because I need more time for Fa study and exercises. We still need to manage our time well and try to balance every aspects of our cultivation.

In addition, the projects that I have mentioned didn't include Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party . I understand Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party is not a simple project, but rather a Fa-rectification current.

This is my personal understanding. Please kindly point out any mistakes. I want to finish my sharing with Master's poem:

Solid Cultivation

Study the Fa and gain the Fa,
Focus on how you study and cultivate,
Let each and every thing
be measured against the Fa.
Only then, with that,
is it actually cultivation.