Finding My True Self

One day, a fellow Falun Gong practitioner told me that another practitioner would like to set up a site to produce materials exposing the truth about Falun Gong, and wanted to check with me to see if it was alright. I agreed. Later, when I met the practitioner who set up the site, I realised that we had met once before. At that time, he was accusing another practitioner of doing something wrong. Seeing his attitude towards other practitioners, I had a bad impression of him. Nevertheless, I did not realise that I was not tolerant with him at that time.

After that, due to my bad impression of him, I could not cooperate with him very well. Later, I had to stop our cooperation, which had a negative impact on our work. At our dissolution, this practitioner pointed out some of my attachments. I did not accept his criticism in my heart. On the surface, I admitted my faults saying that I did not cultivate well in some respects. But these words were not from my heart, and instead I felt that it was unfair and based on jealousy, thereby revealing my irresponsible true thoughts. I did not act responsibly when interacting with this fellow practitioner and didn't behave like a true cultivator.

I did not treat this fellow practitioner with tolerance and benevolence. This showed that I could not distinguish my true original self from my human side. My brain was filled with human thoughts, so I felt regret and hatred, which led me to go to the extreme. Only when I can distinguish my true original self from my human side can I break through all kinds of barriers, eliminate those human thoughts, and assimilate with the new cosmos.

As a genuine practitioner, I should have compassionately exchanged my personal opinions with him at that time, which would have helped avoid the disharmony during our interactions. I could have also improved my character and level at the same time. However, I did not take this opportunity and thus brought damage to the things relating to Falun Dafa. I hope that other practitioners can learn from this.

Later, when I calmed down, I was able to truly find my attachments. If I evaluated other practitioners with my ordinary people's standards and experiences, I could only see others' shortcomings and generate my opinions of them from that, which distances myself further from others. When I tried to understand and assimilate the Falun Gong principles (Fa) based on my human thoughts, I was prevented from using my divine side to validate the Fa. In another words, it was not because the fellow practitioner did anything wrong. It was because my human thoughts blocked my divine side, and I used human standards to judge others. This caused severe difficulties in my work saving sentient beings.

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