Letting Go of the Attachment to Fame

I used to feel that if I used a very unique pen name when I submitted papers to the Clearwisdom website, there would be little chance of sharing the same pen name with someone else. Due to the influence of the CCP (Chinese communist party) culture in the past, I liked to be different when I did something. I wanted to appear superior to others, and had a very strong attachment to showing off my capabilities! Master clearly saw my attachment to fame, and let me see the same pen name being used by another practitioner on the website. I thought to myself, "The name that I used is quite unique. Why did they have to use the same name?" My heart was not balanced. Therefore, I stopped using that pen name, and gave myself another unique pen name to publish papers. However, not long after that, I saw another practitioner using the very same name to publish a paper. My heart was again not at ease: "Why do they have to use the same pen name as I do again and again?" Later I enlightened: "Oh! Maybe Master has used this to help me get rid of my strong attachment to fame."

The next morning, while I was reading Master's new teachings, a line in the Fa became very bright in front of my eyes:

"It is not important to me who wrote the article. As long as what is displayed [in a given article] is something effective for the students' validating of the Fa, I encourage it-even in the case of an article written by someone who opposes us. That is because we are in fact saving all beings, and as long as the persecution has not ended and Dafa students' cultivation journey has not been completed, it presents people with opportunities and gives them a hope." ("Master's Comment on a Student's Article")

I never paid much attention to these words when I studied the Fa previously, and didn't realize that Master was pointing to my attachment, so the words didn't go to my heart. But why did these words become so bright and hit my eyes and heart so strongly now? Was it because my attachment to fame had become so strong and reached such an extent that Master had to let me know? I felt ashamed of myself and tears of lament poured down my face. I was sorry that I didn't do well enough in following Master's teaching!
Just then, my daughter was reading a small truth-clarification (explaining the facts of the illegal persecution of Falun Gong in China) book next to me. A quote from Shen Yun performer Ms. Yang Jiansheng shocked me again, "A true high level comment is that they remember the song after listening to it, not the singer." What a good sharing! I felt that I could see the performers' pure hearts shining with golden light on the stage of Shen Yun, waking people up out of delusion.

Thinking about myself, comparing myself with Master's Fa, and looking again at these fellow practitioners, my face was burning, and I felt that the fire gradually burned away my dirty attachment to fame. I must eliminate these things with my righteous thoughts without one minute's delay, since they are not my true self.

I finally understood why Shen Yun could become popular all over the world. One important reason is that Shen Yun is made up of numerous selfless great deities, and that is why Shen Yun can perform so many extraordinary programs, beautiful as fairy tales.

I also finally understood why Clearwisdom.net (Minghui Net) has been operating to this day, despite all the stormy weather, and is well loved and praised by people all over the world. It is because the website is operated and harmonized by tens of thousands of selfless Dafa practitioners who care little for fame and personal gain!

Attachment to fame is like a huge wall that blocks our way back home. Looking at my selfishness, and especially that dirty attachment to fame, what a disgrace! Yes, on the path of cultivation, the attachment to fame and personal interest is like a huge wall, tightly blocking the road to improvement. If we don't break down the wall, we can't cultivate diligently and improve ourselves, let alone save sentient beings.
When I realized this and started to eliminate my attachment to fame, I found that the sky that was once dark became clear and beautifully blue. I knew that Master was encouraging me and letting me see that my space is bright and clear again, so that I am more confident in my cultivation.