Well Despite Tribulations and Hardships

I never really understood why my own cultivation would have anything to do with future generations until now, despite suffering a lot in the past. At the same time, a thought kept disturbing my mind and I kept asking myself, "Why did I have to come down to the human realm to obtain the Fa? Why couldn't I wait to assimilate to the Fa in the heavens?" Although Teacher has expounded in the Fa on these subjects, I just didn't get the point and I was disturbed over such issues for quite some time.

Today when I was reading a fellow practitioner's article about us coming down to the human realm to save sentient beings, I suddenly understood the reason for us coming down to the lowest realm to obtain the Fa, assimilate to the Fa and save sentient beings.

Teacher said,
"The cosmos is a cycling entity, and all factors of matter are cycling. In the process of being eliminated, the beings that have sinned rid themselves of those sins. They are eliminated, eliminated, and eliminated, until in that elimination process they are reduced to only death matter with no life whatsoever, and then they will gradually rise one level after another and be utilized. The cosmos is a cycling entity, and if a substance is warped that will be a bad situation. The warped substance will be absorbed by lower-level beings, the high-level beings can't go to the low levels to resolve it, and when the substance that can't be resolved by lower-level beings is used again, it sublimates during the cycling, and after the initial warpedness sublimates, higher-level beings can't completely resolve it, either. As it sublimates it can't be completely resolved at any of the levels, and when this happens to numerous substances it causes a large part of the cosmos to become warped." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2003 Atlanta Fa Conference")

I finally understood that this is precisely the reason why numerous lords and kings came down to the human realm to reincarnate as human beings to obtain the Fa. We also had to be purified and so started changing our particles and rectify ourselves level by level. Meanwhile, numerous lives in our realms will be saved. That was when I finally understood why Teacher said, "Those who have cultivated well will truly have a grand Consummation when they return" ("Touring North America to Teach the Fa")
I used to just study the Fa, but now I memorize the Fa as well. When I recite the Fa, I make sure to visualize each word before my eyes. It progressed very slowly at first, but I was not discouraged. I knew reciting the Fa is not just a superficial form. Speed does not matter. Teacher said,

"When one chants the Buddha's name, one must do it single-mindedly with nothing else in mind until other portions of the brain become numb and one becomes unaware of anything, with one thought replacing thousands of others, or until each word of "Buddha Amitabha" shows up before one's eyes." (Lecture Nine, Zhuan Falun)

I persevered in memorizing and reciting the Fa. It has been two weeks, but I have felt great improvements. Today "earth-shaking changes" came to my mind after memorizing the Fa. I knew the changes in other dimensions have truly been tremendous. The Fa is truly mighty. In the past I failed to study the Fa with a tranquil mind, so I didn't feel the mighty power of the Fa.

I am a young practitioner. Although I have been practicing Falun Gong for a long time, I had not been able to study the Fa in tranquility for a very long time. I was distracted by this or that. Usually I felt I valued my Fa study, but I cracked under pressure. I had once even stood against the Fa. Once I returned to Falun Gong, I thought for a long time, wondering how could I have gone astray from the Fa. Finally I concluded that Teacher has expounded the root causes in Zhuan Falun: I failed to search inward and I didn't study the Fa well.

Actually I spent a lot of time studying the Fa in the past, but I failed to take it into my heart. When I faced tests, I failed to pass them. Finally, I parted with the Fa when the persecution started. It was a hard lesson. I see some fellow practitioners around me who were just like me in the past. They feel they studied the Fa well, but they don't know how to search inward when they face problems. They have strong attachments to fame, self-interest and emotion. I feel very anxious for them. I don't want to see fellow practitioners repeat the same mistake I made --- refusing to correct their problems until they stumble and fall. I feel they share the same problem I faced --- failing to take the Fa into the heart.
Teacher said He had incorporated his power in the Fa. Teacher also said, "The Fa can break all attachments" ("Drive Out Interference" in Essentials for Further Advancement II).

Why are there so many fellow practitioners overcome with tests that are related to their families, sickness and financial problems for a long time? I feel it's because they have failed to study the Fa well. Perhaps they should persevere in memorizing the Fa. Don't pursue speed. Memorize the Fa slowly until you can visualize every word in front of you. Teacher said there are layer after layer of Buddhas, Taos and gods behind each word in Zhuan Falun. The infinite power of the Fa of enlightened beings shall dissolve all of our thought karma and attachments. As long as we persevere, we "...will indeed find: 'After passing the shady willow trees, there will be bright flowers and another village ahead!'"(Lecture Nine, Zhuan Falun)

This concludes my humble insights. Please kindly point out anything that does not comply with the Fa.