Cultivating Away Attachments to Computers

I'm a young practitioner, as I turned 27 this year. For a long time I've had too many attachments to get rid of. I'd like to share my experiences regarding cultivating away the attachment to computers. Please point out anything inappropriate.

For a long time I had been attached to computer games, especially a particular type of sports computer game. Playing these games fully lays bare my human attachments, like competitiveness, the showing off mentality, chasing reputation, holding grudges, and other similar kinds of human attachments. I read a fellow practitioner's essay about giving up the attachment to playing computer games, where they mentioned that the characters in the games also have life. When we kill a life in the game, in another dimension it truly exists, and it's taking a life. So it will imperceptibly create karma for oneself. Even though I knew it was bad, I was loathe to quit these games--after all, I'd already been doing this for seven years. While playing, when other people congratulate you or admire how you can play well, I get happy. The feelings of showing off, caring about reputation, and all the attachments of validating oneself are thoroughly exposed. Because of these attachments, I never made up my mind to delete the games. I just told myself and that I could exercise self-control, but I often failed to get control of myself
A few days ago, I saw a recording of Dafa disciples from southern Taiwan on the Minghui website. Compassionate Master had revealed the gong columns of Dafa disciples in the human world, and I was moved to tears. I thought about how after I obtained the Fa, Master purified my body for me, and I thought about everything Master has borne for Dafa disciples--what did I have that couldn't be given up? So I resolutely decided to delete the games.

When I did it, it was really like "After passing the shady willow trees, there will be bright flowers and another village ahead!" When I dropped that attachment, it was like I could give up anything. Of course, I have to continue giving up attachments to computers, TV, various websites, films, games, and all other human attachments. I have to realize that the computer is just a tool for me to study the Fa, validate the Fa, and share with other practitioners. From now on I will just go to Dafa disciples' websites and have the computer only play a role in assisting Master to rectify the Fa.

Today while I was reading Zhuan Falun, I read the part in Lecture Three, "I Treat All Practitioners as My Disciples," where Master says:
"Can you be considered a Falun Dafa disciple if you just practice these few sets of exercises everyday? Not necessarily. This is because true cultivation practice must follow the requirements of the xinxing standard that we have established, and you have to truly upgrade your xinxing--then, it is true cultivation practice. If you only practice the exercises without improving xinxing and without the powerful energy that strengthens everything, it cannot be called cultivation practice; neither can we treat you as Falun Dafa disciples."

When my xinxing (character, heart and mind nature) drops to the ordinary people's standard, can Master regard me as a practitioner? Do I still deserve to be a Dafa disciple?

Whenever I think of this, I feel sorry to Master, and I feel ashamed of myself and regretful for not being diligent. Of course, I know Master is extremely compassionate and does not want to leave behind a single disciple, but when our xinxing does not conform to the Fa, what can Master do? So in the future, we must study the Fa more, do the three things (study the Fa [the teachings of Falun Dafa], send forth righteous thoughts and clarify the truth about Falun Dafa and about the persecution to the world's people) well, honour our prehistoric vows, and complete cultivation to return with Master. It is exactly like the lyrics of the song "Don't let regret become eternal regret."

My level is limited, and I hope that fellow practitioners will point out anything inappropriate.