It Is Really Wonderful to Look Inward

I obtained the Fa in 1997. Before I obtained the Fa, I had many illnesses. However, all my illnesses were gone within one year after I started practicing Falun Dafa. I experienced how delightful it is to be without any illness. I am not able to repay what Master has done for me. I am only able to do the three things (study the Fa [the teachings of Falun Dafa], send forth righteous thoughts and clarify the truth about Falun Dafa and about the persecution to the world's people) well and not let Master down. In what follows, I would like to share several cases where I looked inward when I encountered problems.

At 4 p.m. on the day of the Mid-Autumn Festival, I was studying the Fa when my daughter-in-law came home. Usually, I go out to clarify the truth about Falun Gong in the morning and study the Fa in the afternoon and night. This day was a holiday. I thought that since most of the food was available or half done, it would not be too late if I started cooking later after studying a lecture. My daughter-in-law saw me not moving and felt a bit unhappy. She said: "Other families make a lot of dishes for the holiday. Look at our family, it's the same as it usually is. The atmosphere is not festive at all." I was alert after hearing what she said and I looked inward immediately. Did I have an attachment? When I encountered similar situations before, I also looked inward and was tolerant. However, this time my heart revolted. At that time, I was determined to look inward unconditionally, find the attachment, and get rid of it from the root. I looked inward carefully. I found that although on the surface, I was studying the Fa, I was actually thinking about myself and did not consider my family's feelings. And also, I found attachments of concern and fear. I realized that I had found those attachments and that I would get rid of them. After having this thought, I felt relieved in my heart. My daughter-in-law also felt happy and kindly helped me cook. It seemed she had never been unhappy.
Today, I finally know that looking inward is a powerful tool to improve xinxing (character). I experienced how wonderful it is after looking inward and upgrading my level. Looking inward is not just something to say. We must take the Fa as our teacher, make strict demands of ourselves, and improve xinxing. And also, we should have a solid base of studying the Fa. Since the persecution started, I have persisted in studying one lecture every day. Besides sending righteous thoughts at the four designated times, I send more as long as I have time. Sometimes, I send righteous thoughts 11 times in one day, and at least eight or nine times. I do things in an organized way.

I still have many things to write down. What I have done is still far from what Master requires us to do. I also urge fellow practitioners to look inward and hurry up to save more beings. I could not read and write before. I was able to read Zhuan Falun in one year after I obtained the Fa. I wanted to write down my sharing a long time ago, but I was always blocked by the thought that I did not know how to write. Today, I have summoned up my courage to write. It can be counted as a report to Master after practicing many years. Master, I will strive forward wholeheartedly and follow you to return home.