Denying Interference Caused by My Human Notions

On a winter day a few years ago, I went alone to a rural area to distribute Falun Gong materials. Before I left home, I had a negative thought, "What would happen if I lost my bicycle? How would I explain it to my family?" However, I didn't realize that it was interference from the evil.

With this thought in my mind, I felt that everywhere I went was not safe for my bicycle, and every person I saw was a potential thief. Although the materials distribution went smoothly, I couldn't find my bicycle when I was ready to return home, even though I looked everywhere. Thus, I had to take a taxi home.

This incident gave me a very strong hint. If I don't think bad things will happen during the materials distribution it will go smoothly, and if I think my bicycle will be stolen it will happen. Also, when I looked inward for attachments, I found a very strong attachment to protecting myself, the attachment of fear, and the attachment of seeking comfort, etc. I worried a lot about my family's feelings and emotions. I feared that they would find out that I was distributing truth-clarification materials (materials explaining the truth about Falun Gong and its persecution). Therefore I always did the truth clarification work without telling them, in fear of their anger if they knew what I was doing.

The old forces took advantage of this loophole and arranged this tribulation. I didn't realize it right away, so I didn't grasp it, deny it, and send righteous thoughts to purify my own dimensional fields. Therefore the old forces' arrangement turned my worry into reality.

Every time I coordinated with fellow practitioners in doing truth clarification work, I thought, "Fellow practitioners don't have jobs, but I have a job to do. So I have more pressure. Fellow practitioners don't have families, but I have a family. So I have more difficulty."

By having the negative thought I brought extra tribulations on myself. The evils could see my attachments clearly in other dimensions, "This person is seeking tribulations. Then let's give him more." Consequently, my company superior approached me and said, "You shouldn't do it that way. You should do it this way..." At the time, I was shocked and at a loss. My attachment of fear kicked in and I felt tremendous pressure. I was thinking all day what I could do to deal with the situation. Isn't this causing extra tribulations for myself?

The hardship was caused by my human notions and attachments. I knew I should not acknowledge the old forces' arrangements. Although this tribulation was caused by my human notions, I must not acknowledge it. I must completely deny the old forces' arrangements and continue to clarify the truth and save sentient beings. So I continued to do what I was supposed to do. My boss did not say anything after that.

Through studying Teacher's lectures in various cities, I realized that I could have righteous thoughts and walk a righteous path only if I studied the Fa well. Therefore, I started to recite Zhuan Falun and judge each and every thought with the Fa. Whenever I found I had a thought that was not based on the Fa, I immediately cleaned up my own dimensions and surroundings, I looked inward at the same time and denied the old forces' arrangements. My distractive human thoughts and notions have gradually decreased.

The above experience sharing is my limited understanding. Please kindly point out anything improper.