New Practitioner: Studying the Fa Well Engenders Mental and Physical Changes

In August 2007, when I went back to my hometown, several practitioners in the village sent me a DVD on prophecies. Though I parroted the words of others and said some bad things about Falun Dafa, I never had any hostile feelings towards Dafa. When I had nothing to do, I began watching these prophecies and found they were quite interesting.

On returning home I did some searching based on some keywords. I found a blog run by practitioners, and asked a practitioner online at the time how people could avoid great disasters. This practitioner posted his answers in the blog. One of the answers was the three withdrawals (withdrawing from the Chinese Communist Party and its affiliated organizations) and the other was knowing that Falun Dafa is good. I thought I would be okay if I followed what the practitioner had said. Later I browsed another practitioner's blog and read all her articles, which greatly inspired me. I downloaded a copy of Zhuan Falun and began to read. At the very beginning I only wanted to be someone "in the Dao without cultivating the Dao." I always thought that my xinxing (heart and mind nature, character) was very low and was too far away from Teacher's requirements.

In July 2008, I returned to my hometown. At that time, I was determined to study the Fa. I saw Udumbara flowers in a lot of places at my aunt's home and she also talked to me about the flowers.

Therefore, I read Teacher's recent articles online, memorized Hong Yin and read Zhuan Falun. Something unexpected had happened. In the past, before my son would fall asleep, a pattern had developed of my having to scratch his back for more than an hour every day. I felt very frustrated and was unable to have a good sleep myself. One day I gave him an amulet. Miraculously he did not feel itchy that evening and as a matter of fact the itching never came back. Also, I had some problems with my chin and dared not to open my mouth wide. Yet, one day upon accidentally doing so, I found that the problem with my chin seemed to be cured. It felt really wonderful. After that, I was determined to practice Falun Gong. However, because there were no practitioners around, I dared not to do the exercises. I was afraid that if my movements were not correct it might affect the mechanism Teacher had laid down for us. Teacher said:
"One's gong level is as high as one's xinxing level, and this is an absolute truth." (Zhuan Falun)

Therefore I began to study the Fa.

In April 2009, my son was in kindergarten. At the time I did not work, so after sending him to school I began memorizing the Fa. I was really very diligent at the time and my xinxing also constantly upgraded. In July, I began to work and I was unable to budget time to study the Fa during the three months while I was working. Gradually I slacked in my cultivation and thought it would also be good if I could become a practitioner during the Fa-rectification period. Eventually I merged into everyday society. Every day, I was thinking how to pursue sales leads and how to make money.

Compassionate Teacher did not abandon me. In less than three months the company collapsed and I was unemployed. With the October 1 holiday just around the corner, my mother asked me to go back to my hometown to stay for a while. Therefore, I went. I talked to my aunt about my thought of becoming a Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple. She asked me not to give up since the opportunity did not come easily. After the sharing I returned to Dafa. My aunt taught me the five sets of exercises.

After returning home I began to look for a job and I wished that I could find a job that was close to my home with both Saturdays and Sundays off to study the Fa (many work units in China are six-day work weeks). Teacher granted my wish as I found a satisfactory job which met all my requirements. The work was not hard and I had plenty of time to study the Fa. Though on weekdays I did not have much time to do the exercises, I would catch up on weekends. Whenever I had some time at work I would do a set or two of exercises or would recite the Fa. Now I am able to recite the first three lectures.

I have not experienced as many miracles as other practitioners have. I simply believed in Teacher. If I study well I hope to be accepted to college.

One day when my mother came to visit me, she asked why I was so healthy and all my illnesses had disappeared. Only when she mentioned it did I realize that all my illnesses had disappeared without my noticing. As a result my mother also embarked on the path of cultivating Falun Dafa.

One day in my dream I was flying. Though I did not fly very high, I experienced the wonderful feeling of flying. Whenever I saw the faltering of the elderly or heard people say so-and-so was old or sick, I would think that I did not want to be an everyday person since it was too hard. Everyday people couldn't string together three good days in a row, and they would be miserable in getting old.

At present, I still have a bad temper and have been unable to forbear. Making this public I hope that I can rectify myself. At present I am only cultivating myself. I haven't done the three things (study the Fa [the teachings of Falun Dafa], send forth righteous thoughts and clarify the truth about Falun Dafa and about the persecution to the world's people) Teacher has asked us to do. My only hope is in studying the Fa well and enriching myself with the Fa. Only when I understand the Fa better can I clarify the truth to other people.

Comparing myself with fellow practitioners, I felt deeply ashamed. I would like to take this opportunity to thank the practitioner named Zhen who gave me a lot of support online. With her encouragement and help I have managed to advance to this point today in Dafa.

In the days to come I will be more diligent until reaching consummation!