Searching Inward and Improving Ourselves from the Fa

Searching Inward and Improving Ourselves from the Fa
By a Falun Gong practitioner from Heilongjiang Province
(Clearwidsom.net) I read the article "A Couple of Things during the Chinese New Year Period--Fellow Practitioners Are a Mirror and Cultivate Every Thought." (Currently only available in Chinese, http://minghui.org/mh/articles/2010/2/26/218874.html) Two issues were raised in the article.

First, the attachment of not being able to take criticism needs to be eliminated.
Second, when fellow practitioners' shortcomings surface in front of us, we should take the opportunity to search inward.

I feel the same way. Fellow practitioners are mirrors for us to see reflections of our own shortcomings. They help us to examine ourselves, search inward, and provide us with a chance to improve ourselves from the Fa.

I have not been well in recent months. My legs hurt so much that I could not go downstairs. I could not figure out the actual reason. One day after group Fa study, we discussed an elderly fellow practitioner who showed the signs of severe illness and became paralyzed. However, with strong righteous thoughts and a firm belief in Master and Dafa, he recovered in seven days. I suddenly realized the reason behind my recent problem. I could not let go of my attachment to sentimentality. I didn't have any children. I adopted a son and a daughter when I was young, raised them, and helped them to get married. However, I always felt that they were not filial enough. After my husband passed away, I sold my investment house and gave my children all the money. However, my son wanted more. He also wanted the last house that I was living in. I was so angry that I moved out of our family home and stayed away from them. Whenever I thought about this, I got very angry. I could not treat myself as a practitioner and fell to the level of everyday thoughts.

Master tried several ways to point out my attachment. However, I did not realize my problem. Master said in "Fa Teaching Given in Manhattan,"

"As gods see it, for a cultivator to be right or wrong in the human world is not important in the least, whereas eliminating the attachments that come from human thinking is important."

I finally realized that I was wrong. I should not compete and fight like ordinary people. I must let go of my attachment to sentimentality. I should treat my son and daughter with a compassionate mind. When I had this pure thought and completely let go my attachment to sentimentality, Master removed the bad substance from me. I felt a sudden relaxation. My thoughts expended to as large as a universe, and I felt that I could tolerate anything. Everything was so organized before my eyes. When I looked back at my son and daughter, I felt nothing had happened before. I felt so calm and peaceful that tears filled my eyes.

Again, I felt the gentleness of great Master. I greatly appreciate Master's support and cherish this hard-won opportunity to cultivate.