My Cultivation Experiences

Standing in the garden, a little girl of about 3 years old...a bag of sweets in my hands. Another little girl came in and said I’ll be your friend. She put her arm around me and took my sweets….. I was happy...then she left when the sweets were gone...

What I am, what’s inside me is not what people want. Yet what I have is so good kind and pure joy. I want to make friends and live in this world and interact and get through life and so...I entered the big dye vat of ordinary human society.

After getting through marriage break-up, family break-up, all my dreams broken at the age of 43 super fit, with boundless energy, good health and a nice career ahead of me –I began to feel a bit unwell. Two years later I was struggling to keep my work going. I knew I was not getting better. I met Tadhg and he persuaded me to go and have a diagnosis. I was shocked as the Doctor told me he was sure I had scleroderma or lupus an autoimmune illness.

From then on for the next three years Tadhg brought me to every alternative practitioner he knew. We tried everything including fasting over long periods, acupuncture, herbal medicine, nutrition, yoga, emotional psychotherapy. Blood tests showed more activity.

Nothing worked I was in unbearable amount of pain all of the time. My body was breaking down bit by bit. My limbs were becoming deformed. I was constantly inflamed and throbbing. Tadhg and my daughter had to do most everything for me. Even my optimism left me. I knew I was dying- I could feel my spirit leaving me. Tadhg never gave up hope and he would say there is a way out.

Then one day (sept 2001) introduced me to a book Zhuan Falun – I was not interested. I had big resistance – then I took it up one day and flicked through and I still did not take to it. It was Tadhg again that mentioned something Master Li talked about in the book that finally drew my attention and I decided to start reading from the beginning.

As I began reading I could feel something change inside me- I knew I was being healed. It was such a simple natural feeling. Tadhg brought me to the classes and for the first few times I had to really force myself to stay – and endure cause I was still in a lot of pain. But after about four classes I found I could manage and had less pain.

And today I’m in perfect health, but more important my longing to return to my true nature is over. As I move forward in life now I’m realising how much human moral values have become so corrupted that its hard to tell what’s right or wrong and I am so thankful to have found Master and now I’m learning to live by Zhen, Shan, Ren.

My life’s meaning has completely changed. I’m seeing this world and all that’s in it differently. I am becoming a better person, I’m realising that my attachments cause me so much suffering – I don’t want them anymore.

Master highlights them for me to see clearly and sometimes I cry but I feel myself heading backwards towards that little 3 years old child that had goodness and kindness and full of joy to a land of purity. With Master’s guidance and my commitment and dedicating to Zhen, Shan, Ren I’m being lifted out of the dye vat and into the arms of truthfulness, compassion and tolerance.

My understanding of Fa Rectification is not just this world but many levels even higher have been corrupted and lost their way in the Fa so as I work on my own cultivation, I must also help illuminate the evil in the universe on all levels as well as spreading the Fa so as more people can have the only chance to return to Zhen, Shan, Ren and return to my true nature.