I am not familiar with Ms. Wang Yao Qing, although she stayed in the UK for several months. At the beginning I heard a lot about her from other practitioners, so I assumed that she was a diligent practitioner. Now I am strikingly aware. I examined myself: what evil do I have that aligns with the demons and made me feel she was good? Why didn’t I identify a fake practitioner as other fellow practitioners did? What gap do we have that made her choose to attempt to damage us? After sharing with fellow practitioners, I have gradually come to understand. Here I write down the details of what I have been through, as it might help us dig out the evil in ourselves from the complications of the superficialities, upgrade our ability to discern as a whole and prevent other devils from drilling into us, bent on our destruction.
It was August 2002 when I first met Wang at a Fa conference, just after the Hong Kong trial case. As one of the 16 practitioners that were arrested she came from Hong Kong to England specifically for the purpose of clarifying the facts to the government. She made a long speech at that conference. Speaking slowly and calmly, she gave us the impression of being capable, passionate and enthusiastic. In that speech she talked mainly about how they firmly resisted the evil policemen without any support from other practitioners, and talked about the ins and outs of the Hong Kong trial case. (Now I know she was the one being accused of hitting the HK police with her arms.) During that period of time, our practitioners here in England held different opinions on whether we should continue to appeal outside the Chinese embassy or not. I felt upset when many fellow practitioners thought we were going to extremes and had not eradicated our attachment of zealotry. When she described her situation in Hong Kong and how they finally won extensive support, I subconsciously believed that I comprehended the Fa better than the others. I began to feel delighted and to accept her in my heart. As I look back now, I thought she was good because she conformed to my concepts and thoughts. I was judging her with lots of my human sentimentalities.
The second time I saw her was at a group Fa-study session. She introduced how Hong Kong practitioners clarified the truth to Chinese people. Compared with them, we did so little here. Subconsciously I projected my respect for Hong Kong practitioners onto her. I remember a fellow practitioner brought up an idea of giving donations to support the mailing cost for sending truth materials to related organisations against the Hong Kong Article 23 legislation. A Dafa practitioner disapproved of this idea, saying we should not impose any idea of funding because Dafa is to be forever pure and indestructible and that we do not get involved in money. I was not convinced at that time and did not realise the damage of this money-related issue. Suddenly Wang stood up and claimed that anyone against funding was one who would not sacrifice for Dafa and had some xinxing problems. It was really adding fuel to the flames at that time. As I look back now, I can see that she took advantage of the deteriorated concepts of everyday people to lead practitioners astray.
Since then, I heard more things about her. For instance, she went to Beijing 4 times for Fa-rectification and she was put in jail for 8 months. Her 9-year-old son, mother and sister all went to Beijing to appeal. Many of her stories touched me very much. While she was here in UK, she acted very “diligently” and cared for our fellow practitioners. More than that, she enthusiastically clarified the truth to the MPs here.
Around 6 months ago, I did not understand Master Li’s Boston Fa-Lecture deeply enough. I disagreed with those passive Dafa practitioners who do some co-coordination work, and those practitioners who talked a lot, but did so little. I attributed the slow progress of Europe’s Fa-Rectification to the wait-and-learn attitudes of the practitioners. Since we need righteous thoughts and actions, I felt that there should not be only thoughts without actions. I became very anxious and wished to do more work. Furthermore, I acknowledged that if we were scattered, we would not be able to unite to form shape. Without gathering the power of each individual particle, we could not accomplish any significant goal. Therefore I started to demand more from those Dafa practitioners who took responsibility for co-coordination and to criticise any minor obstacles. It was not a big problem to think this way at the beginning, but it became a significant problem when we went in an extreme way.
We are cultivating our hearts, not doing work. With an everyday people’s xinxing, one can never do anything of real effectiveness. A practitioner said there were two ways to distinguish a genuine cultivator from his/her outer form: one is if she looks into herself, the other is if she has benevolence. A practitioner found Wang never looked into herself, never found herself wrong. Her incessant talk was always on how to do things concretely, how to do things on a grand and spectacular scale. She seldom shared what she had leaned from the Fa. Most of her feelings came from other practitioners. It is essential for a secret agent to have good ability to memorise, just memorising what other people said. Arranged by the old forces, she particularly adopted asking of high standards of others. She could criticise almost everyone. A practitioner recalled that Wang got angry, acting like a shrew without any kindness.
Then I heard she encouraged conflicts between practitioners and the Dafa Association. She encouraged the thoughts among practitioners that the Dafa Association was the delegate of the old forces and we should overturn it if we wanted to get rid of the old forces. She flattered those practitioners who organised activities by saying how capable they are, and that they had special missions. What she wanted was to separate the practitioners from the Dafa Association. Without thoroughly understanding the meanings of “selflessness, altruism and non-omission”, our egos would easily swell under her agitation and we would believe we comprehended the Fa better than other practitioners. In the end, we could develop demonic interference from our own minds.
Here, as I examine myself, I feel distressed that my cultivation has only been carried out in the superficial things. I hate the latent evil in me that makes me arrogant. And I regret deeply that my sense of protecting Dafa was so paralysed. Overall, the experience strikes me heavily as a warning signal.
These are just my personal thoughts. Comments are welcome.
Chinese version available at http://www.yuanming.net/articles/200303/18622.html
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