Through Hard Times Teacher Guided and Helped Me In My Cultivation

At the end of 2000, the authorities in Jilin Province set up another brainwashing class and forced those Falun Gong practitioners who hadn't signed statements promising not to practise to attend the class. I had to leave home on December 24th, 2000, in order to avoid being arrested and further brainwashed. While out of town, I worked in a restaurant to earn my basic living, and sometimes I had to work sixteen hours a day. I could not manage to set aside the time to study the Fa (Law and principles; the teachings of Falun Dafa) and practise the exercises every day, and I often felt very lonely, bitter, and bored. With all sorts of attachments arising, I quit practising Falun Dafa for a period of time.

After the Chinese New Year in 2001, the boss from my former company (where I was previously fired for practising Falun Gong) sent someone to see me. He said that as long as I wrote a repentance statement, I could go back to work and could also go home and be reunited with my husband and child. I knew in my heart that I could not write a repentance statement, no matter what happened to me. Yet I still had lots of attachments to my work and my family. So I played with words and wrote a statement called "My Thoughts on the Tiananmen Square Self-Immolation Incident." The boss said it was not sincere enough and demanded that I write a statement promising not to practise. It was then that I realised that I was being deceived. I regretted very much this "black spot" on my path of cultivation and that I had written, "My Thoughts on the Tiananmen Square Self-Immolation Incident." Afterwards I fell into a very bad state in my cultivation. I couldn't concentrate whenever I studied the Fa, my attachments would always arise and I felt hopeless.

I often called to Master in my heart, wishing that Master would not let go of me even though I was hopeless. Master's articles would appear in my head again and again, and each time I felt a warm current pass through my body. I knew Master had not given up on me, so I made up my mind to improve my mindset. I started to study the Fa and developed a firm belief that the teachings in Falun Dafa can rectify everything. With my firm belief in Falun Dafa, I was once again able to see the profound meaning of the Fa, which further strengthened my determination in cultivating in Falun Dafa.

I began to talk about Falun Dafa and the real facts surrounding the persecution to my boss at the restaurant and to the other waitresses. I told them how wonderful Falun Dafa is and told them my experience of the persecution. After understanding the truth, my boss arranged a good environment for me to study the Fa and practise the exercises. I behaved according to "Truthfulness-Benevolence-Forbearance" while I worked for the restaurant and I would often help others in addition to carrying out my normal duties. My boss saw this and gave me a wage increase and told me that he too would study Falun Gong in the future.

I once saw a poster detailing the true facts about Falun Dafa on the street, which had the Fa-rectification verses printed on it. I memorised them and often recited them to myself. One day a thought suddenly came to me: other practitioners are risking their lives when they post such posters on the street, yet I am hiding here, afraid of being persecuted. So I decided to go back home to join fellow practitioners whom I had not seen for over seven months. I wanted to access Master's new articles and to catch up with the process of Fa-rectification.

After I returned home, I realised that the words I had memorised and recited every day were the Fa-rectification verses that Master taught to us to eliminate the evil. I know deep in my heart that all this was arranged by Master in order to save me, to point me in the right direction and to firmly support me while I walk along my path to show people the truth about Falun Dafa and save sentient beings.