Overcoming the affection among family members by believing in Master and the Fa

Greetings Master!
Greetings fellow practitioners!

It is already more than a decade since I started to cultivate, but I have been in the state of self-cultivation. Since May 2011, I have been lucky enough to enter the global RTC platform before a complete end of my state of self-cultivation. Every day, with fellow practitioners around the world having group Fa-study and sending forth righteous thoughts, I soon begin to pick up the phone to call mainland China and clarify the facts. By getting myself involved in this whole body effort daily and by doing the three things in both the quality and quantity required by Master, I have found that my Xinxing has been rapidly upgraded. With my firm belief in Master and the Fa, and with selfless help from my fellow practitioners, I have not only rectified my family environment but also overcome several tribulations in a few months. Now I would like to take this opportunity to share with my fellow practitioners my experience in cultivation for the past year.

Improving my family environment by upgrading my Xinxing
Before entering the global RTC platform, my family environment in cultivation was like this: my husband did not like me participating in local group Fa-study. And he even more strongly opposed my clarifying the truth, distributing truth clarifying leaflets or introducing Shen Yun to people.

When I joined the RTC platform, I studied the Fa with my fellow practitioners every day, but this was strongly opposed against by my husband. He said: “It will do if you study the Fa yourself, why do you have to study it with others?” Studying the Fa with other practitioners was not allowed, not to mention my calling people in mainland China. I went on the platform phoning mainland China when he was not at home. Later on, he found out what I had done and got furious. Eventually he even asked me:”What do you want, our family, or Falun Gong?” He even made such heartless remarks as, “We should break off our relationship and I can’t put up with you any more. Let’s divorce.” And never had he made such remarks in our decades of marriage, nor had he got so angry that he threw things on the floor.

At first I was a bit overwhelmed, in my eyes, I just felt that he was simply a stranger. The cosy family atmosphere was gone and no joy left, instead, there were arguments. Later, I read Zhuan Falun. Master says, “Your spouse would not care if you were to do something else. Qigong practice should actually be a good thing, but she always finds fault with you. In fact, your wife is helping you eliminate karma, though she does not know it herself. She is not fighting with you only superficially and still good to you in her heart—it is not so. It is real anger from the bottom of her heart, because whoever has acquired the karma feels uncomfortable. It is guaranteed to be this way.” I thought that this part of the Fa was talking about me. Suddenly I understood that my husband was helping me eliminate karma for the sake of my cultivation. I shouldn’t fight with him but thank him. At the same time, I also realized that my husband’s abnormal action was not really himself, but the evil in another dimension who manipulated him.

As a cultivator, I should look within whenever something happens. By looking inward, I did find that I did not behave as a cultivator at home. When handling some things, on the surface what I did was for the benefit of the family but in fact, I was feisty. I did not feel like doing housework. If I could put it off I would, and I never considered my husband. At home I would do everything my own way without complying to the requirements of 'Truthfulness, Benevolence, Forbearance'. I realized that I should do everything according to what Master requires. Wherever I am, I ought to be a good person who is kind to other people. So I was determined to rectify my family environment.

On one hand, I sent forth righteous thoughts to eradicate all evils that hinder me from helping Master in Fa-rectification. On the other hand, I started to improve myself. Since then, I have been considering my husband more and taking care of him. I have started to do more housework. Previously he often mentioned that he wanted to make an investment, which I had never been in favour of. I was always trying to stop him doing it by saying: “Forget it, what situation are we in? Don’t allow your fancy to run wild in such a situation?” Now I can understand his angle: He is an ordinary person who wants to lead a good life, this is the goal of ordinary people. I am a practitioner and cannot require him to live by the principles of a cultivator. In addition, another reason of my stopping him making an investment is that I have an attachment to my own interests, and fear loss. I think this is an opportunity to get rid of my attachment to my interests. So I am not going to stop him, he can make a decision himself. Unknowingly, the atmosphere at home is getting so peaceful that I can participate in the Fa-study on the platform. As I still have human notions, I am doing Dafa work without letting my husband know it.

Experiencing the test of affection from family members who passed away within three months
In early December 2011, there came the sad news of the death of my elderly father in mainland China. For years being overseas without being able to fulfil my filial duty to my parents (because of the persecution in China), I have been feeling terribly bad. Now I could not go back to bury my father, words failed me in describing my feelings. The moment I heard the sad news, I just sat there staring blankly. All past experiences that I shared with my father were playing back in my mind and my tears couldn’t stop running. I did not know how to troubleshoot my own grief and was restless when going to work or making phone calls to mainland China on the platform. My heart was not only full of sorrow but also full of resentment to the evil Party. I thought to myself: “Since I cannot go back to China, I’ll speed up in saving people here so as to accelerate the disintegration of the evil party.” With a heart of competitiveness, I started to make phone calls. As you can imagine it did not go very smoothly as saving people by making phone call is closely linked with our own cultivation state.

After I finished making calls, some fellow practitioners were concerned and asked me what was wrong. On hearing this, I could not help crying. So my fellow practitioners immediately and selflessly shared with me: some fellow practitioner shared my pain with her own experience which was similar to mine; some encouraged me to grasp this good opportunity of cutting off this affection from family members, and some read Zhuan Falun to me: “The community of cultivators holds that one’s Primordial Spirit does not become extinct. … Therefore, we have found that when a person is dead, only the largest molecular elements in this dimension of ours have sloughed off, while the bodies in other dimensions are not degenerated.”

Master says in Zhuan Falun: “Cultivation practice must take place through tribulations so as to test whether you can part with and care less about different kinds of human sentimentality and desires. If you are attached to these things, you will not succeed in cultivation. Everything has its karmic relationship. Why can human beings be human? It is because human beings have sentimentality. They live just for this sentimentality. Affection among family members, love between a man and a woman, love for parents, feelings, friendship, doing things for friendship, and everything else all relate to this sentimentality. Whether a person likes to do something or not, is happy or unhappy, loves or hates something, and everything in the entire human society comes from this sentimentality. If this sentimentality is not relinquished, you will be unable to practice cultivation. If you are free from this sentimentality, nobody can affect you. An everyday person’s mind will be unable to sway you. What takes over in its place is benevolence, which is something more noble. Of course, it is not easy to abandon this sentimentality right away. Cultivation practice is a long process and a process of gradually giving up one’s attachments. Nonetheless, you must be strict with yourself.” “If you want to practice cultivation, human sentimentality must be relinquished.”

I came to realize, as ordinary people are going through the process of birth, old age, illness, and death, we cultivators should understand this principle more clearly, I should not be driven by my affection for my father and I should do better. So, with a Dafa disciple’s way of holding a memorial ceremony for my father, I said farewell to my father who was good, honest, and tolerant in this lifetime of mine by helping him quit the CCP with his real name (He had previously quit it with a pseudonym). I thought that my father would also be pleased and gratified when his soul is in heaven. I was fully aware that everything is amid Master's compassionate salvation and could also personally feel Dafa’s grand power and compassion, which helped me be free from the grief of my lost loved one, and soon concentrate on making phone calls to save sentient beings. With the issue of my father’s death, I phoned my friends and relatives in China, thanking them for all they had done for me on one hand, further clarifying the truth about Dafa on the other hand and persuading them to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations, the result of which was good.

Two months later, in February of this year, my elderly mother who loved me dearly also passed away. This time, my affection for my mother was less than two months ago and it was easier for me to overcome my grief. I also helped my mother quit the CCP with her real name (she had also quit using a pseudonym before). In a dream, I saw my mother give me a hint by holding up her thumb in approval. I knew that my parents, who were aware of the truth, were praising what I have done for helping Master in the Fa-rectification. Although I did not have a chance to see them when they were dying, they did not blame me but felt proud of being my parents in this lifetime.

Around the time when my mother passed away, the moment I was doing the sitting meditation with my two legs crossed, my legs started to feel pain until the end of the exercise. I felt it difficult to do the sitting meditation for half an hour, let alone reach the state of tranquillity. I could have easily done the sitting meditation for an hour before. Why did my legs start to hurt without reaching the state of tranquillity? With human notions, I thought I might sprain a muscle. Such a state lasted for several months. Recently, on the RTC platform when we had an experience sharing meeting, a fellow practitioner whose third eye is opened said that she had seen that a practitioner found her legs painful when doing the sitting meditation due to resentment. On hearing this, I did not take it into heart but thought that she was mentioning somebody else. It was another fellow practitioner who reminded me: “Hey, someone whose legs are painful when doing the sitting meditation is caused by his or her resentment. And how about you?”

It was now that I started to work out when it was that my legs started to hurt when doing the sitting meditation. Oh, it was from the time when my mother died. Later on, during group Fa-study on the platform, I read a part of Master’s Fa which had me look inward and find out the reason why my legs were painful: I had an attachment of resentment, I hated the evil party. I was also attached to complaining about all sorts of things. It was quite amazing that when I found an attachment, my legs would not hurt that much. When I found another one, my legs became better. And now I can basically do the sitting meditation without feeling pain in my legs.

Overcoming my affection for my husband who suffers from cancer
This May, my husband was diagnosed with nasopharyngeal carcinoma.
On hearing this news, I suddenly felt that the sky had fallen and was so sad that I could not sleep at night. But I was clear-headed that I am a Dafa disciple and could not let anything affect me doing the three things well. Restraining the pain in my heart, I demanded myself that I must keep up Fa-study on the platform and making phone calls to mainland China, but the effect of doing these was unsatisfactory. At that time, I felt that I had no confidence to face and cope with this matter, so I opened my heart and told a few fellow practitioners what was on my mind.

One fellow practitioner told me: “This is a good thing, everything we cultivators come across is a good thing.” Another said: “This is a false impression, do not acknowledge it and send forth righteous thoughts to eradicate it.” One practitioner told me: “The only thing you can do is to study the Fa. If you study Zhuan Falun three times every day, you will soon know how to handle this matter”. Another said: “You must believe in Master and the Fa.” I did not say anything but I was muttering in my mind: "How can I not believe in Master and the Fa?”

So I started to intensify my efforts with Fa study and sending righteous thoughts. From the principle of the Fa, I was aware that I was overcoming my affection for my husband but I still couldn’t control myself. One day, I was on the phone with my son and I started crying. Although my son was very anxious, he suddenly changed the topic by asking me: “Mum, do you really believe in God?” I replied: “Why, yes, of course I do.” My son added: "If you really believe in God, it is God who arranged this. Why do you still keep blaming and crying? Please think about it again: do you have great kindness and love? How many patients with cancer have you ever dealt with, you know, but you have never been so sad and painful as this.” Suddenly I woke up, this was Master who gave me a hint by using my son’s mouth.

I asked myself: “Do I really believe Master and the Fa one hundred per cent?” Normally, I always believe that Master will give me something good such as buying a house or when my children look for jobs etc. Now, something worrying has happened, where has my belief in Master and the Fa gone? When I really realized this, I felt a heavy layer of dirt come off my body and I was suddenly light-hearted. My heart revealed a trace of enlightenment, a feeling I have never had before.

Because of laying down my human emotion, I have become calm and of fortitude. This state of mine has given my husband great confidence and encouragement. My husband has started to change and now begun to watch New Tang Dynasty TV programs and the Nine Commentaries on DVD. Now I can, in a dignified manner, not only study the Fa and do the exercises at home, but also openly make phone calls to mainland China clarifying the truth. And my family environmental has been finally rectified.

Thank you Master for his compassionate salvation.

Thank you fellow practitioners for your selfless help.