Experiencing Teacher's Benevolence

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I had been seeking a cultivation method for four years before coming across Falun Dafa. On a Sunday in 1997, I spent an entire day watching all the videotapes of Teacher's Fa [Law and principles in the Buddha School] lectures in Jinan. After having watched them, tears streamed down my face. At that time, I truly felt that I had found the thing that I had been searching for all my life. Some people often say that man comes to this world for one thing. I knew that my life just came for Falun Dafa. The third day after I finished watching the tapes, I had a wonderful feeling in the dantian point in the lower abdominal area. I knew that my body was been adjusted.

For most of my life my personality could be classified as being introverted. And in the beginning of my cultivation, I did not communicate much with other practitioners. I normally practised alone at home. Aside from the time I spent at work, I would spend most of my time studying the Fa and doing the exercises. At that time, I felt that my practise was going well and I could also control my Xinxing [mind-heart nature].

Serious Teachings

In July 1999, I was studying the Fa and practising the exercises as usual. I did not have too much contact with other practitioners, but I knew that some practitioners around me had gone to Beijing to peacefully appeal against the persecution and were arrested. However, I often thought, "What could I do by going to Beijing?" I thought that the persecution was like big waves washing away the sand. I also thought that when it was time for me to step forward, I would be able to firmly step forward.

Not until the year 2000 when I saw Teacher's article "Rationality": "Validate the Fa with rationality, clarify the truth with wisdom, spread the Fa and save people with mercy" (Essentials for Further Advancement II), did I realise that what I should do. However, stable xinxing is the base for meeting these requirements. At that time, I still got up at 3 a.m. to do two hours of sitting meditation. I was feeling good about this and just focusing on the physical experience of warmth and heat. I remembered that I often had dreams about taking exams, in which many times I thought I knew the answer to each question but could not write down the answer!

One day, I saw the Minghui Net editorial article "Serious Teachings" and was deeply touched. In this article, Teacher says,

"Why does a person study Dafa? Those people only want to gain from Dafa, and they regard Dafa as a protective shield. While Dafa encounters persecution, while disciples are being arrested, persecuted, and beaten to death for protecting Dafa, what are they doing? While their Teacher is being slandered, what are they doing? Are they waiting for something good to just fall from the sky? Are they waiting to reach Consummation once the tribulation ends? I'm really worried for them."

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"If a person has obtained the Fa but isn't able validate the Fa, does he still deserve to be a Dafa disciple?."

Every one of the sentences alarmed me. Although I was somewhat touched, I was still behind in the Fa-rectification. I was dragging behind in some matters since my mind was still in the mode of self-cultivation. Then one morning I had a dream. It was the most amazing dream I've ever had and remains unforgettable to this day.
In the dream, someone pointed at me to speak during a meeting. The person beside me reminded me to talk about Falun Gong. However I thought that in front of so many people, I should avoid the subject. Therefore, I did not speak about anything concerning Falun Gong and kept talking about trivial matters. Upon waking up, I found myself breathing heavily and was very tired. I remembered Teacher's words:

"At the crucial moment when I ask you to break away from humanness, you do not follow me. Each opportunity will not occur again." ("Digging Out the Roots", Essentials for Further Advancement)

When I was reading this article, I thought over and over about grasping this kind of opportunity should it come again. However...

I repeatedly read Teacher's articles and thought about how I only wanted to gain when I practised the exercises everyday. When Dafa is being persecuted, isn't it selfish to only want to increase one's own gong [Cultivation energy] and reach consummation? Cultivation depends upon oneself and the gong is up to Teacher. Will Teacher develop gong for such a selfish person?

That day I decided that I must step forward. I posted some flyers that I received, along some major streets during the late hours of the evening. I also wanted to write an essay using the facts that I knew to validate Dafa to the different media in Beijing including newspapers and TV stations. I thought that although I wasn't physically going to Beijing, the letters should achieve the same effect. In order to avoid the persecution from my local police, I decided to go to other areas during the holiday and send the letters from there. I finished them and made copies. Two days before leaving, I had another unforgettable dream.

The sky was dark and I seemed to be in a large theatre. Suddenly, many cracks appeared on the ceiling and it started to sink gradually. Many people were trying to run around in order to escape. I was also going to run but suddenly saw several people firmly standing in the middle of the hall. It seemed that they were holding the ceiling with their gong. I found myself coming over and standing together with them. I saw the ceiling gradually elevating, the cracks disappearing, and the ceiling returning to its original appearance. The ceiling was no longer a ceiling but the whole sky. Then came a wonderful children's choir, "Whenever I gently pass in front of your window, the bright light shines my heart..." The whole world seemed to become bright and beautiful. When I awoke, I knew that the dream was Teacher's way of telling me that I had done the right thing. I realised that although I had yet to send the letters, Teacher clearly saw my changes. Later, practitioners made many copies of the letter that I written and sent them to many areas. I joined the flow of Fa-rectification. I was distributing flyers and hanging banners. I became more and more mature during the Fa-rectification. I gradually realised that I am a Dafa practitioner during the Fa-rectification period. Our way of cultivation is completely different from those in the past.