Female Dafa Practitioner's Heartful Plea -"Who Will be Held Responsible for the Damage Done to My Family?"

One day in December of 2001, I went to the countryside with another practitioner to distribute flyers that clarified the truth about Falun Gong and we were reported to the police, arrested and taken to the Public Security Bureau. The Political and Security Section Chief at the Public Security Bureau in Zhangwu County in Liaoning Province, Cui Haifeng asked me where my flyers came from and who I was in contact with, but I did not tell him. They went to search my home and forcibly took away my Dafa books and other items, and then sent us to the detention centre.

In the first few days, policewoman Li Yingqiu from the detention centre ferociously said, "Will you be able to recite the detention centre regulations in a few days?" I said that I did not know. She slapped me twice, pointed at me and shouted, "Go back and kneel on the ground and recite the regulations. You are not allowed to stand up if you cannot recite it!" The other practitioner and I began a hunger strike to protest the illegal detention.

Section Chief Cui Haifeng tried to force me on several occasions to tell him the sources of my truth clarification materials and about other practitioners' situations. I told him that I could not tell him. I also told him, "We are good people and we have not done anything wrong. The purpose of our distributing truth clarification flyers is to let the Chinese people know the truth. It is wrong for Jiang to persecute Falun Gong, and you should not detain us." He asked me to write the "pledge" to give up practising Falun Gong and I refused. Cui Haifeng also asked my daughter to try to persuade me into telling him where the flyers came from and to give up the practice.

Under his intimidation, my daughter begged me against her will in tears, but I remained resolute. Then Cui Haifeng said, "If you say that you won't practise any more, nobody will know it and we won't tell other people. You can still continue practising at home." I told him, "This is not possible. We cultivate Truth-Compassion-Tolerance and try to be good people. I benefit from the practice and I will definitely not tell lies." In the beginning, he put on a hypocritical face and tried to use the emotions of my children, coercion and deception to obtain what he wanted, but when he saw that my attitude never changed, he said, "If you give up practising, we can immediately release you. You don't need to pay any money; otherwise, you have to pay 5,000 Yuan."

The financial situation of my family was very difficult, and my children and I lived together. After I was suddenly arrested, my two children felt frightened and worried. When the police asked them to pay 5000 Yuan, they tried many possible sources to borrow money in tears, but could not get enough money. The police still tried to force them to hand in the money before the deadline. This put a great burden on the hearts of the two children and their hopes were almost gone. Because my family could not pay the money, when another practitioner's family paid the money for her, the police still refused to release her. The police forced her family to borrow money to pay for me before they would release her and also told her that the police thanked her for her donation (her family spent more than 10,000 Yuan trying to release her), but did not give them a receipt. The police also asked my daughter to be my guarantor and intimidated her by saying, "If your mum causes any problems again, you will be arrested as well. And that will no longer be an issue that can be solved with 5,000 Yuan." After I was released, the police spread lies claiming that I answered whatever questions the police asked, and that I also reported other practitioners. They fabricated rumours to destroy my reputation.

I asked Section Chief Cui Haifeng, "Why do you fabricate rumours and make false charges against me?" He said, "We can say whatever we want because there is no written record." I said, "This is an insult to my character." He had nothing to say. Other practitioners saw through their lies, gave me selfless support and assistance and their scheme was not realized.

After I came back home, in order to pay back the debt to that practitioner, I went out to look for a job and earn some money. However, because of my age, it was not easy for me to find a job. Thus, I had a lot of tribulations and have not been able to pay back that debt up to now. My children were seriously damaged by this incident. My younger daughter felt worried and nervous all the time. In addition, the lies and hate-inciting propaganda on the TV as well as the sneering from our neighbours and other people who didn't know the truth, all made my children unable to thrive, and it seemed to them that I had done some disgraceful things. My children used to support my cultivation because they witnessed my changes and knew that Falun Dafa is good. Now they had difficulty understanding me and also had complaints and resistance and thus did some irrational things. They lived in the shadow of conflict and terror all the time. My daughter naively thought that as long as I stopped practising, all these problems would disappear. Especially during the days when I went out to work, police continually pressured her to find me, which made my children worry about me again and fear that the police went to arrest me again. They worried about me all the time and had heavy mental burdens. I used various means to clarify the truth to my daughter and hoped that she could understand all that I have done, and that she could understand the truth of Falun Dafa so that the knot in her mind could be opened and she could be released from the pressure. But she didn't listen to me at all. She was tortured by such pressure for years and could not get away from it. Her body became thinner and thinner, she became more agitated and eccentric. My son also felt worried for me silently and carried heavy burdens in his heart.

Because of my endeavour to be a good person, Jiang's persecution caused my happy family many difficulties. Someone said, "It is all your fault and your children were also involved." I think such reasoning is wrong. In the first 7 years when Falun Gong spread in China, before the persecution started, 100 million people practised it. Everyone knew of Dafa's goodness and no one had misunderstanding or hatred against Falun Dafa. The whole country was in harmony. If Jiang had not inhumanly tortured and killed Falun Gong practitioners, why would any Dafa practitioner go to visit the appeals office or distribute truth clarification flyers? Is it wrong for us to cultivate Truth-Compassion-Tolerance and try to be good people? We only hope the persecution can be stopped and we can have a cultivation environment that supports freedom of belief. We only hope those everyday people who are deceived by lies can understand the truth. We hope to use our lives and compassion to call for the return of human morality. What crime have we committed?

Chinese version available at http://www.minghui.org/mh/articles/2004/1/26/65851.html