First Hand Experience of Cruel Brainwashing at the Beijing Women's Forced Labour Camp (Part 2)

Part 1: http://www.clearharmony.net/articles/200702/38017.html

In July 2003, I walked out of the Beijing Women's Forced Labour Camp. It marked the end of my two-year-and-four-months hellish ordeal! I will continue to recount my painful experience.

4. Torture Under the Scorching Sun

(a) "You have only one way to go"

Beijing is an oven in August and September. The drilling ground at the labour camp was dry and hot. Heat waves bounced around. I felt as if a little spark would set off a major fire by kindling the air particles.
Someone shouted, "Zhang Yijie, come out." I walked out after I had already gone through individual military training for an entire morning. It was past lunchtime and everyone was taking a nap. I saw six inmates standing on the drilling ground. They looked like they were waiting for me. I joined the group, and a guard started putting us through exercises. The inmates made some noises and were clearly unhappy about having to do drills at midday when the scorching sun was at its worst.

Beads of sweat streamed down our faces. The robbers, thieves and drug addicts could barely take this kind of suffering. They started swearing. The guard appointed inmate Hong to train me one-on-one and told her to be "strict" with me. The inmates now realised they were accompanying me in the drill only because I had not "reformed¹." They immediately turned against me. I knew the guard was using the inmates to torture me and incited hatred of me, by forcing them to go through the drill with me.

Hong began to train me. The guard went into the shade. Hong barely kept her anger to herself. She shouted arrhythmic orders in a strange tone. After 30 minutes she had reached her limits, and the guard finally came out of the shade. Hong thought the guard was going to take her place, but instead the guard told her to train all seven of us. The guard was trying her best to exhaust the inmates' patience.

The inmates were tired and furious. They purposely bumped against me, kicked me and said, "So, you haven't reformed. You must have a screw loose in your head! Let me tell you, you'll have the time of your life if you don't reform!"

They vented all of their frustration and anger on me. Hong kept kicking me saying, "I am telling you to reform now! Why do you refuse to reform after everyone else has reformed? I'll teach you a good lesson next time. The government [guards] won't let you off the hook. You'll see!"

A short break turned into a group assault. They hit and kicked me. The guard pretended to look away, as this was exactly their plan.

Hong said, "Are you going to reform or not? You're making me suffer with you! Look, all these people are baking under the sun just because of you! Are you happy now?"

I said to Hong calmly and slowly, "I didn't make you come. You came willingly to bake under the sun." She froze, and then she glared at me and realised what was really happening.

The labour camp officials have countless methods to torture Falun Gong practitioners and have absolutely no scruples when abusing Falun Gong practitioners as they know the practitioners won't fight back. They do, however, approach the true criminals with caution and sometimes let the criminals get away with things because they didn't want trouble for themselves. After my conversation with Hong, all of the inmates refused to go to the drilling ground.

The guards had no choice but to drill me themselves at another place. They took me to a pavement completely exposed to the sun on the east side of the building. Four head guards - Gao, Wang Yu, Yang Jie - and deputy division head Wei Chunhong took turns putting me through punishment, which they call "training." Army formation exercises are used as a way to torture "major targets" [Falun Gong practitioners] at the labour camp.

They asked me countless times, "Reform or no?" I answered countless times, "Impossible!"
Because of my answer they coerced and tortured me more often than I can remember. They made me walk back and forth hundreds of times on the 200 ft. path. They made me do different military steps, including walking and running, and turning left and right. The guards stayed in the shade of the tree while shouting commands. When she grew tired she ordered me to stand in military postures. I was hot, drowsy, hungry and thirsty and exhausted beyond description. Every minute felt like a year. My vision became blurry, and sweat streamed down my neck and back. My shirt and pants were soaked. The little bit of sleep, scrap of food and sips of water I was given that day had long been used up under the sweltering heat and physical torture. I propped myself up through sheer willpower. I encouraged myself to never bow to the evildoers by constantly reaffirming my righteous belief in Teacher Li [Teacher Li Hongzhi, the founder of Falun Dafa] and Dafa.

They saw that I was extremely weak and tried again and again to "reform" me. I thought, "How can you understand the mind of a Dafa practitioner?" I knew very well at the time that I must be mentally prepared to face the upcoming days with a strong will. The tortures they had put me through were only the beginning. As long as I persisted in Dafa cultivation and refused to reform I would face all forms of evil and torment at the labour camp. They would undoubtedly resort to crueller means to destroy me. I told myself, "I must be tough. Reform is never for me! I have only one path, to practise Dafa with determination! There is no other path or choice. There is no suffering that is too great for me, a Dafa practitioner! I've already cast aside thoughts of life and death. What else is there to fear? Therefore, there is no tribulation that is too great for me!"

I cannot recall how long I was standing there. The guards took a long break, and after their rest they told me to do a slowed down version of a goose step by raising my arm and leg and keeping them in place for a long time. I was forced to stand on one leg and keep the other leg at a certain height and angle and switch to the other leg after a period of time. After several minutes I was sweating profusely. My entire body shook and I was staggering. Each time before I was about to collapse I put down the raised leg to support my body. I could not stand for the length of time they required of me, so they forced me to keep doing the same exercise over and over. Eventually I became dehydrated and felt as if I had been roasted dry and completely powerless. With a loud noise I collapsed on the ground. I picked myself up and fell again and struggled to get up, only to fall down again.

The head guards were tired and furious. They said to me, "Zhang Yijie, why are you doing this to yourself? Fine, feel free to wrestle us. I'll have to see what you're made of. You'll have to endure if you don't reform. Don't you [Falun Gong practitioners] talk about endurance? You have to be trained this way if you refuse to reform! Look at you. Your face is white as a sheet and you are in terrible shape. How long can you go on like this?"

They reminded me several times, "You are different from everyone else. You can get out of here if you reform. One practitioner from a division was taken out after she reformed. Everyone in your division has reformed. You are the only one left. Forget about ever getting out if you don't reform. No one can get out without becoming reformed first. You can't get out via any social relationships. You'll get a sentence extension and the big tortures. That's what you'll get!"

I said, "I never thought about getting out through any relations. I wouldn't be here in the first place if I wanted to get out through any relations. Since you arrested me and took me here, I never thought about getting my freedom by making compromises with you!"

I fixed my eyes on the head guards and said slowly, "Do you know that you also have to endure and pay for everything that you are doing to me right now? Because good is rewarded, and evil will reap its own peril. You can savagely beat me, torture me, take food and water away from me, bake me under the sun, drill me endlessly, and you can even take away my life, but you cannot take away my soul. None of you can change my mind and my belief, and my thoughts are dictated by my belief!"

When torture failed to subdue me, even more ruthless tortures followed. A deputy division head and three head guards took turns drilling me day after day. Each session ended only when I could no longer get up from the ground. I was surprised that I was able to get through all of it.

They never forgot to torment me psychologically at the same time as they pushed me to my physical limit. They made sure I suffered even worse mental anguish than the heat and exhaustion under the sun.

(b) "Sing a song!"

One day during the drill, guard Wang Yu said, "Zhang Yijie, stop and sing a song!" I thought, "Singing is a beautiful thing. It can help people adjust and relax them. But who has the heart to sing in this devil's den?" I refused, saying I didn't know how to sing. Wang Yu said in an authoritative tone, "Of course you do, everyone does!" I think she was talking about "The Same Song." I firmly refused to sing that particular song as I truly hated it.

I remember that I became familiar with this song under unique circumstances. I was forcibly abducted by officers from the Security Bureau inside the government compound under broad daylight on January 3, 2001. I was taken to a brainwashing class held at the Xinan Labour Camp, by an Office of the Central Government's Party Committee where they tried to reform me. I fought against the persecution with everything I had. I went on a hunger strike and refused to listen, talk or read anything they gave me. They held me at the brainwashing class for 15 days.

One day they brought several collaborators from the labour camp and said the collaborators were going to sing for me. They introduced the collaborators to me saying, "This is a Ms. X from the Chinese Academy of Sciences. This is a professional singer, and this is Ms. Y., a state class one actress."

They held a score in their hands and said they were going to sing for me. They sang "The Same Song." The professional singer said to me, "You'll love this song! All Falun Gong practitioners love to sing this song!" I remained silent. I refused to learn the song. Besides, the lyrics were revolting. They sang it several times and stopped singing when they failed to detect any interest from me. Several of them talked to me, trying to reform me, but I didn't answer them. They were later taken away.

The singer was right. Everyone who reformed at the labour camp loved to sing "The Same Song." They sang it during the exercises, during contests, during work, during large meetings and small meetings. They sang it before meetings and after meetings. They always cry when they sing the song, and they would cry as they sang it. Everyone was weeping and wailing after they started singing the song.
I saw the first of these "choruses" at a camp-wide meeting held for [current and former] Falun Gong practitioners. I was shocked by the crying that filled the entire auditorium. I analysed the lyrics and tone of the song and understood why the practitioners who were "reformed" cried, and why I hated the song. The song lyrics speak of time, hopes, attachments, losses, sorrows and an inexplicable evil substance. Only those who were crying know what else was in that song.

A plethora of feelings struck me at that moment, sadness, pity, and anger. The crying only encouraged the evildoers and heightened the evil atmosphere at the meeting. The evildoers on the platform and in other parts of the auditorium were smug, and the crying was a demonstration of their achievement to reform practitioners. They announced a brief intermission and made the practitioners finish singing the song while crying.

I was indignant. What is there to be proud of when coerced reform is done only through physical torture and mental persecution? Did they convince people through good acts or the law? Who can say that the gut-wrenching cry is not a most desperate protest against the evildoers?

I've always hated that song since. The evildoers made everyone sing this song on all occasions. To put it simply, they wanted to make everyone cry. I called it "the devil's song" and never hummed a single note of it in any situation.

Some labour camp officials said that Dafa practitioners who didn't reform like to sing "The Plateaus of Qinghai-Tibet." Indeed, the same belief in Dafa gave us the same interlinked mind. I was deeply attracted to this song when I heard it for the first time and learned it while being held at a Custody Centre in Guangzhou. When I felt lonely or sad, I quietly sang this song in my mind. The broad and lofty tune made me feel an infinite mystery and wonders of the universe. It awakened distant memories and hopes, thereby encouraging me to overcome difficulties and persevere until the end.

Guard Wang Yu didn't ask me to sing "The Same Song." She said, "Zhang Yijie, sing 'Mum is the Best in the World'." I immediately knew what she was after. The worst tactic from the evildoers at the labour camp was to destroy practitioners' wills by mentioning our children. They try to make us miss our children and families and then accuse us of being heartless and of abandoning our families. They tell us how difficult life is for our families, how much our children miss their mothers, and how pitiful the little kids are, in order to make us feel guilty, blame ourselves for being kept away from our families and make us miss our families terribly so they can destroy our willpower. They succeeded in beating down many practitioners with this tactic, and this song had become their trump card. When practitioners sang this song they would start crying, and the scenes from the film where this song was taken would appear vividly before our mind's eye and remind us of sweet family life. Some practitioners couldn't stop crying.

Several months later they [again] observed and studied me. They watched me go through sleepless nights and days without food, various types of physical torture and mental torment. They saw me grow emaciated before their eyes. I seldom spoke. They thought I had reached my limit in physical and psychological tolerance. People are usually at their weakest during these times. They thought they could perhaps make a breakthrough with me somewhere, so they never missed any opportunity to launch a psychological battle against me.

Guard Wang Yu repeatedly coerced me to sing the song "Mum is the Best in the World." She said, "You have a son and a daughter, and you must really miss them. I heard that you were brought to the labour camp soon after your children went to college, and when they were on a school break they couldn't find their mother. Don't you feel terrible? Don't you miss your children a lot?"

I didn't say a word. She again urged me to sing the song. I thought that I must let her know that it doesn't work on me.

5. Eighteen Sleepless Nights

One day several people suddenly came into my room during the daytime. They shut the door and windows and closed the curtains. They even covered the small glass window the patrol guard uses to look into my room. I knew from the intense atmosphere that another round of persecution had begun.

They changed the group of people assigned to watch and persecute me. Chen, Hao and Wang continued to stay in the group, and drug addict Han Xuwei, as well as Zhen Jie, Tang Jianshu, Liu Hong and several others were brought into my room to join the group. Another round of persecution started after the group of people was changed. They watched me around the clock and made sure I did not fall asleep or take a nap. They took turns brainwashing me, and they also made me watch videos that slandered Teacher and Dafa. They worked in shifts, each shift consisting of two people. One shift was before midnight and the other shift was after midnight.

Evil Mental Coercion

After brainwashing and various types of tortures failed, they loudly claimed that I was "psychologically controlled" and I was "possessed by animals." In order to confuse me and create self-doubt, they kept saying it over and over, and the guards said it repeatedly at all meetings. On the other hand, they watched my every move, facial expression and mood. They seized on the slightest subconscious move I made to prove their point, that I was manipulated and possessed. They would reinforce this claim, trying to instill it in my mind, in order to bewilder me and try to start my self-doubt. They wanted to make me lose myself and accept brainwashing and reform. After this experience I understood why and how some people had a mental collapse.

When the collaborators² brainwashed me, they sat in a circle on small stools, with me in the centre. They talked to me for an entire morning, afternoon, evening and sometimes throughout the night. They forced me to look at the person who was talking, with my upper body in an upright position, my knees together and my hands on my knees. When I nodded off from exhaustion and drowsiness, they shouted, "Look, look, the animals are possessing her again! Beat the animals out of her!" They then started kicking my legs and feet.

In order to reject their endless, wicked theories and slanderous attacks, to have a break for my nerves that had stayed on high alert at all times, and to preserve the remaining bit of my energy and strength, I gradually learned to shut my mind and not listen to them, and I could go somewhere else in my mind. Sometimes I stared at the grass and ants around my feet, the treetops in the distance, or a certain object in the room, and I tried my best not to let the evildoers move me. It was really hard for me not to hate them. Every time hatred arose I tried to eliminate it because Teacher said that cultivators must not hate.
Guard Jiao said in a menacing voice, "They [collaborators] were all like you when they didn't reform. You'll be fixed once we knock out your possessing animals and those who psychologically control you."

I said, "I am clear-minded! You are the ones who are completely mentally controlled! You are manipulated by devils and by animals! No one forced me to practise Dafa. I practise on my own accord out of pursuit for the truth, because Dafa awakened my soul. Why should I agree with your filthy theories?"

A vengeful look fled across Jiao's eyes, but she smiled as she walked away.

They tortured me day and night. They made me stay up night after night and brainwashed me day after day. When I moved slightly, if I didn't put my hands and feet where they required, or if my attention was not on what they talked, they would jump up and say, "Look, look, her possessing animals are here again. She is different from others. Her shell is especially thick. It's typical mental manipulation!" They said things like this and tried to shove them into my mind.

A little later I couldn't help but doze off. They kicked me and screamed, "Look! Her animals came back! Beat her animals! Beat her! Make her come to her senses!"

I couldn't take it anymore and I said, "Don't do something so ridiculous. You can't achieve anything by doing this to me. I won't fall into your trap."

I knew very well that they wanted to drive those fabricated accusations into my mind in order to confuse me and repel my righteous thoughts, so I would lose mental control and lose myself. I warned myself all the time that I must maintain a strong main consciousness. My mind must be righteous and I must act with righteous thoughts and righteous actions. I must not let them move me, otherwise those evil things would really enter my mind, which was exactly their goal.

I don't remember exactly what day it was, but it was around the tenth day... Each night two people watched me and ordered me to sit on a small stool in the middle of the walkway between two beds, so I could not lean on either bed, and they wouldn't let me close my eyes. When I shut my eyes they shouted, "Zhang, open your eyes! Open your eyes! If you want to sleep, you must reform! If you don't reform, don't think about sleeping!"

I wasn't affected in the least. They continued this mental coercion for a while and they felt it didn't have any effect, so they gave it up and resorted to violence.

Violence During a Dark Night

After a whole day of brainwashing and an entire night of repeatedly watching Dafa-slandering videos, my tightly shut brain finally relaxed amid snoozing sounds in the room. At this time my mind and my heart were free. I let my mind wander and thought about everything. I thought more about the happy times before July 20th, 1999, when I bathed in the glory of Dafa, the date when I had changed into a completely different person, from the inside out. It was more than four years, but it felt so short. I never expected the severe situation after July 20th, 1999, and wondered when this tribulation would end. Where are all my fellow practitioners who were like my brothers and sisters? Did they also lose their freedom? Are they also determined? When I thought about them, my heart was light but also heavy. My shirt was soaked in tears when I thought about Teacher.

Late into the night Hao Lihua and Hao got up and asked me the same questions they've asked countless times, "Zhang Yijie, will you reform or not? So, you'll make us suffer with you? Where is your compassion? How dare you say that you practise Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance?" Hao cursed me. Hao and Chen were both in their thirties. Hao, Chen and Wang Yan were always together, like shadows. Wang Yan is another collaborator. She wrote filthy articles in Teacher's name and passed them to the Men's Labour Camp. She is really wicked. The three of them had the guards' greatest trust. I had a feeling that they would take actions against me at any time. They would do worse things to me because all of their previous tactics had failed.

Later that night they received orders from the guards and started hitting me. Hao and another person yanked me from the stool onto the floor. They wrapped my entire body in a quilt and knelt on me. One of them held my head in place and put their knees in my face so I could not breathe. Another person kicked and stomped on all parts of my body. I struggled and put my face next to the floor so I could breathe. I used my free hand to protect my head.

They screamed as they beat me, "Beat her possessing animals! Beat out her mental control! Peel off her shell! You are tough, you won't reform, you are the only one practising cultivation and no one else is [practising cultivation]!" They kicked and beat me like madwomen. My head and shoulders were held down tightly, so I could not move or get away. My face was held against the floor so I could not make any sound. They kicked my back, chest and abdomen. They also kicked the rest of my body as if I were a sandbag. One person lifted one of my legs and vehemently kicked my private area. I struggled and freed my leg in order to protect myself.

When they released me, two people started kicking and beating me together. I didn't even have the strength to move or get up. I never made any sound. Those two people heaved, and the sound of kicking lasted for a long time. It was a night that seemed to never end.

Usually, the guard on duty would open the door many times throughout the night to see if I was sleeping, and if the collaborators were slacking off. This night, however, the guard never came.

They stopped before dawn, probably from exhaustion. From then on I noticed the guard disappeared completely whenever I was beaten. It was a sure bet that he would not show up at any time during the beating.

I didn't moan after a long beating. I remember the two of them pulled me up and tried to put me back on the stool as they cursed me. I could not sit up. I can't recall how long I had lain on the icy concrete floor, how I got up or what happened afterwards. I felt as if I had lost my memory. Miraculously, when I became fully conscious, all of the physical pain was totally gone.

I still treated them with compassion after the beating, as I had always done. One of them regretted her actions and wrote a letter to me. I said to her, "I don't hate anyone. Cultivators do not bear hatred, but I cannot understand how you can listen and help the evil do these kinds of things. You once practised Dafa! Even if you had not, you shouldn't beat a woman in such a rampant manner and put her in such a terrible situation. Not even an ordinary person would have done it. Where is your conscience as a human being? What you have done is beyond reason. You must know that coercion and crimes cannot change people's minds. I hope you think it over!"

Protest

It was in 2001, a few days before October 1st, the date that marks the Communist Party usurping power and the Mid-Autumn Festival. The 2001 National Day and Mid-Autumn Festival fell on the same day. Another group of practitioners were brought over from the Beijing Labour Reeducation Dispatch Division. I felt the persecutors were becoming more and more evil in brainwashing. It was indeed the year when the evil was running most rampant.

One day the guards ordered several people to beat me. In the past they dared not hit my face but this time they punched my face with brutal force. Soon, my face was severely bruised. My face was numb and I felt blood running down, but when I tried to wipe away the blood with my hands there was nothing. I realised the sensation was caused by blood vessels bursting under my skin. I felt my head and face swell. When I touched my face, I could tell that my face was so swollen that it was even level with my nose, and my upper lip flipped outward. I had black and blue eyes from the beating, and I could not open them for my swollen face had sealed my eyes. I knew I was disfigured from the beating.

A while later the guards told us that everyone at the labour camp would join a party in the courtyard after dinner and told me that I must go. I thought, "Why would they still ask me to go out, with me being tortured like this? In the past they always carefully isolated me from others. It is unusual, what is this all about?"

Suddenly some people entered the room, they secretly and nervously said, "Being beaten too severely, her eyes are even sealed." "What should we do?..." Then I heard someone leave the room.

I couldn't open my eyes and I couldn't see who those people were. Quite a while later the person who had left came back, whispering to the other people in the room, "They gave me a bottle of 'Heal Quick,' hurry up and spray her with it." They discussed it and said this medication is used for external injuries and is very good at quickly reducing swelling.

They sprayed medication "Heal Quick" all over my face. Tears streamed from my eyes because the spray burned like having been stung by a wasp. After the beating and application of the spray, my vision became blurry, and I saw dark spots in front of my eyes. They sprayed me over and over. I was then not aware of their intention and I just wanted the swelling to go down, because the other practitioners would become afraid when they saw my face. That is why I didn't stop them from repeatedly spraying me with "Heal Quick."

I couldn't see my face. Several days later I looked in a mirror and I saw a deformed face, covered with congealed blood. My face was black and blue, and eye sockets and eyelids became dark purple with extravasated blood. My mouth and nose were swollen, and I could not bear to look at myself.

In the evening I was taken into the courtyard and sat in a designated seat. The other practitioners hadn't seen me for the past few months. They knew that I was held alone. None of them expected to see me with a horribly disfigured face. They looked at me with shock and fear in their eyes.

I calmly glanced over the group, which sat in a square of approximately 40 m. in diameter. I saw many new faces, and I knew they had just been brought here. Suddenly I realised why the guards had brought me out here. They rarely allowed other practitioners to see me and never let me participate in any activity. This time they wanted to brandish their "victory" by displaying me on stage. They wanted to shock the new practitioners, shock the practitioners who they thought have not completely "reformed," and shock practitioners who they thought had not actually "reformed." I was stunned at this realisation. They are so malevolent! So malevolent! My physical wounds hurt, but my heart and mind hurt even more!

Division head Jiao Xuexian looked at them and looked at me. She finally tore off her hypocritical mask and revealed the "fruit" of several months of fanatic persecution and reform efforts. She knew what was done in the dark will come to light, and her true self finally emerged. She smugly and arrogantly said to the other practitioners, "Zhang Yijie had a cosmetic procedure! Zhang Yijie had a cosmetic procedure!" What she meant was, "Do any of you want to end up like this?"

Everyone fixed their eyes on me the whole time. I saw all kinds of looks. I understood Jiao's meaning and straightened my back. I had a determined but calm look on my face. I didn't display the slightest discomfort. I wanted to send this message through my body language, "I simply refuse to reform! I will practise Dafa with determination. I will always have a backbone even if they beat me to death! All of this farce doesn't affect me at all, and coercion cannot alter my belief. Violence cannot subdue me!" My existence was an encouragement for other practitioners, and I was boosting their confidence. The evildoers said "important" practitioners could talk with their eyes. Exactly! I greeted them and exchanged meanings with them through my eyes and my smile.

I was upset when the other practitioners started dancing. I thought, "I didn't know you guys were in this mood." But then I thought, "No, who doesn't miss their families during the Mid-Autumn Festival? Who would truly enjoy the environment here at the labour camp? Who reformed from the bottom of their hearts? My mental state and my mood would affect them, while other practitioners were also worried and cared about me.

During the dance some practitioners purposely approached me and greeted me with their eyes. Some practitioners secretly gave me a thumbs-up. I returned their greeting with my eyes and smiled at them. One bold practitioner grabbed me and danced with me. I seized the opportunity to slip in a few words during a twirl and said, "Cultivate with determination, jump off the wagon [of reform], beware of x [a person's name] and help x [another person's name]. Try to help all reformed practitioners to return to Dafa!"

It was more than the evildoers could take. Deputy division head Huai circled the yard and stared at me. The drug addicts saw her face, and they jumped up and followed me. I smiled and kept talking to other practitioners as I turned my body. I didn't let my face reveal any secret. I passed my positive mood and determined will onto other practitioners. I smiled kindly and calmly, and I was telling the evildoers that coercion and violence couldn't change people's minds. Their "display" effort was in vain.

The evildoers couldn't stand it anymore. They hinted to the drug addicts to drag me away. They realised they had been defeated once again. The result was exactly the opposite from what they had hoped to achieve. They also cancelled their plan to make me read a slanderous poem on stage.

"She is tough and can endure, but we can't take it anymore!"
I went through one long day after another, one dreadful night after another. I couldn't remember exactly what day it was. The curtains were drawn over the windows day and night, and the door was tightly shut. I could tell it was morning, noon and evening only from three small buns--breakfast, lunch and dinner that were brought to me.

There are several types of people who "reformed." One type knew "reform" was wrong, but they pretended to "reform" because they wanted to leave the labour camp or they could no longer endure the physical torture and mental torment. Another type was confused and thought "reform" was right. The third type completely went to the opposite side and actively assisted the evildoers, committing lots of crimes.
Late at night I sat on the small stool and fell sound asleep as I listened to the snoring in the room. Collaborator Hao lay on her bed and looked at me. She made guttural noises in her throat to wake me up. After I was forced to stay awake for many days, my mind often went blank day and night, and I felt as if I had been sucked dry. I cannot describe the feeling. It was beyond the desire to sleep. What's the physical limit for a human being to go without sleep? What's the limit for sleeplessness when someone is being physically tortured and mentally tormented at the same time? Someone said, "x [another practitioner] had a mental collapse from sleep deprivation." They wanted to destroy me with the same sleep deprivation.
I kept falling from my stool. Every time I fell I picked myself up and sat back on the stool. When I fell again, I got up again. Hao was afraid that I would lean against the length of the bed, so she forced me to sit on the floor in the middle of the room without any objects to lean on. The sound of me falling on the floor woke up collaborators and drug addicts, and they were angry. I tried my best to hold back the feeling of exhaustion and sleepiness in order to not affect them.

At dawn, drug addict Han Xuwei, head of the "taking the fort" class went out and reported to the guards. When she came back she picked on me again. She cursed me for being "stubborn" and refusing to "reform," and blamed me for disrupting their life rhythm. Han Xuwei and the other collaborators desperately wanted to leave the labour camp. They would do anything for the guards.

One day a collaborator named Zhang Yanchun arrived. Zhang Yanchun had replaced Liu Hong, who was kind to me, and guard Jiao therefore "fired" her. Zhang Yanchun saw me, walked around me once and stood still and she said bitterly, "So you are Zhang Yijie? You exposed the brainwashing class online and prevented lots of people from reforming. Do you realise the consequences? So you are sleepy? I'll make you sleepy! I'll whip you blind today!" She started to whip my eyes with a flyswatter. She didn't use the flat side of the flyswatter but turned it and used the narrow edge of the flyswatter only to whip my eyes. She whipped my eyes with brutal force and shocking precision. I felt the intensity of her evil intention and carefully shunned away.

She once practised Dafa, but now she is a well-known wicked collaborator, one of the three at the labour camp. She carried out brainwashing and reform at the Legal Training Centre for a long time. She viciously twisted Dafa principles, slandered Dafa and spared no effort in "reforming" Dafa practitioners. I looked at her face. It was black and covered in bumps. Her face was filled with an evil and murderous look; it so accurately reflected her mind. She whipped away while attacking Teacher and Dafa non-stop with lies.
She said, "If you don't reform in the study class, we have to keep you in the labour camp. If you don't reform, we'll make you. We'll lock you up. So can you endure? Fine, then endure!" I kept closing my eyes to protect my eyeballs from the rainfall of the flyswatter. Tears flowed from the whipping. She didn't stop until she had had enough and was tired herself. My highly wrought nerves finally relaxed.

Over time the flyswatter had left a deep imprint on my brain. In the next two summers I would tremble despite myself whenever I saw a flyswatter at the labour camp. The feeling of my eyes and face being whipped would flash across my mind, and the whipping scene vividly replayed itself. Each time I would secretly throw the flyswatter out the window.

The guards thought I wouldn't be able to last a few days with beating and sleep deprivation. Sleepless nights, however, proved too much for the guards and collaborators. The round-the-clock "battle" stopped on the 19th day. They had gone through their arsenal of torture methods and were so sleep-deprived they could no longer do it. The drug addicts said, "It's a waste of time to say anything to Zhang Yijie. We can watch and follow her all the time, and we can brutally beat her, but it won't work on her. She is tough and can endure, but we can't take it anymore! Tell the 'government' that we quit!"

Collaborator Tang Jianshu is the woman who I previously mentioned was older than me. She experienced the 18 nights of around the clock brainwashing, and witnessed some of the atrocities. It is said that after I was wrapped in a quilt and beaten at midnight she went to head guard Jiao and said she wanted to withdraw from the "taking the fort" group. She said such beatings would kill me, and she didn't want to be held liable. I don't know what prompted Jiao, or if it was perhaps the "workers" all giving up, but I was moved to another room where the environment was just as bad. I stayed in the same room with collaborators Hao, Chen, Wang and two drug addicts who were also prostitutes. They were responsible for watching and brainwashing me daily, but now I could sleep for a few hours at night.

To be continued

Note

1. "Reform or Transform" Implementation of brainwashing and torture in order to force a practitioner to renounce Falun Gong. (Variations: "reform", "transform", "reformed", "reforming", "transformed", "transforming", and "transformation")

2. "Collaborators": Former practitioners who have turned against Falun Gong under brainwashing and torture. They are then made to assist in brainwashing and torturing practitioners.

Chinese version available at http://www.minghui.org/mh/articles/2006/11/16/142459.html