How I was saved and found my way home

With this opportunity I’d like to share a small experience from my six-month cultivation journey.

1. Searching for the true way

Since my childhood I have had a belief in my heart, that the reality which surrounds us isn’t real, and that the phenomenon academics can’t reasonably explain still exist, and are indeed real.

Since childhood, I had developed esoteric interests, wanting to find the real sense of life. I read a lot of spiritual literature and practiced many different ways of spiritual development, without real progress. Often when I was in other spaces in my consciousness, I sent forth a plea to beings, which I called “friends” with the wish to show me the real purpose of being human, I often shed tears in such moments. I felt that my pleas were heard and that at sometime I would have the chance to get to know the truth. At that time, I also tried to learn the Falun Dafa exercises from the online instructions. At that time I only knew that five Falun Dafa exercises created some strong energy, I didn’t realise that I’d soon find the great way of cultivation, that I had been searching for all along.

2. Fall of morality

As I grew up, I started to lose my understanding of what life was really about and as a teenager, I let myself be carried down with the fall of human morality. I started to care a lot about money and material things. I went to discos, traded drugs, did many immoral things without hesitation and developed many addictions. However, I was more or less aware of a good side of my being, which knew why I was here and wouldn’t let me fall so low. The more bad things I did, the more often I realized that it wouldn’t lead to any good, but my desires were strong and I further buried myself in the mud. I was addicted to drugs. Somehow, during this dangerous period, I bought the book Zhuan Falun (the main book of Falun Gong). I didn’t know then, that the book was connected with Falun Dafa and the exercises, about which I had read during the times of my childhood, but it seemed interesting to me, so I ordered it and put it among the other books on my shelf. To my astonishment, the book emanated a delicate, bright glow, was beautiful and had gold words on its cover. I quickly realized that the knowledge in this book would change my life, and that this is what I had been truly looking for. However my mind was seriously interfered with by my attachments and other bad elements that existed in my body. Everything dragged me away from reading Zhuan Falun. But one day I concentrated my consciousness, sat in silence alone in my room and started to read. I read very slowly and carefully, but it was hard for me to understand the contents. I couldn’t concentrate enough, though, and my mind was driven by chaotic, distracting thoughts. This was a vital moment. Despite everything, I understood that this is what my soul has been searching for. I strengthened my Righteous Thoughts and sent a sincere wish to take up the practice and put the book away, but these bad things were still quite strong – for the moment.

3. Body and mind rectification

After sending the wish I started to feel huge changes which took place on my insides, my body, mind, environment and reality around me. I knew that I had a lot of bad karma and bad things in me but I was calm because despite all these bad things I was safe and Master (the founder of Falun Gong, Mr. Li Hongzhi) is watching over me. Several times, when I was in school, or with friends, with whom I often met, I felt the revolution of the Falun and I saw its structure, which revolved regulating my body. Then I also felt how my body was like a cosmos who’s parts were regulated and purified by the energy from the Falun roations. But despite the wonderful changes I had experienced and the field of compassionate Master, my attachment to drugs was very strong.

I had a low enlightenment quality, but I knew that I must let go off all the bad habits. That was a hard time for me, and I made many mistakes, but I still decided to cleanse my body and start cultivation. I started to clean myself from the inside and didn’t eat for 8 days. It took this long to cleanse my body. With each day passing, I felt that a huge amount of karma was removed. I felt extraordinarily light and suddenly could achieve an undisturbed tranquillity, with most of the chaotic thoughts ceasing to exist. My understanding and perception were changing. When my body was purified I started to go out to meet people. Many friends couldn’t believe that such a change had happened in me. They, along with my parents, thought that those were irreversible changes caused by my addiction. At that time I suffered a lot. I regulated my karmic relations with everyone that I met and paid off my karma intensively for the many bad deeds I did in the past. Shortly afterwards, many abilities emerged in me, but I still neglected the Fa study and didn’t shed many attachments. I had a feeling of intense euphoria, I felt better than others and often used my abilities among everyday people, often among friends from my old company. This was a serious mistake. Instead of further studying the Fa, I spent time among people with whom the most things I had in common were drugs. I neglected cultivation and I overdosed again, falling to the very bottom. I knew that my level had drastically fallen, all the gong which I felt in my body had disappeared, and many, many living beings in my body died because I didn’t control myself. This was a terrifying feeling. Beings in worlds inside my body died one after another, my parents lost any hope for me and wanted to take me away for psychiatric treatment. In this state I felt that I was really dying, I pleaded for a last chance, and I received it. I worked hard to repair the damages I’d caused. I isolated myself from the external world, and in my home I started to diligently study the Fa. I read the book one time after another, gradually coming to understand why my path looked exactly the way it did. When I knew what cultivation was about and had a basic understanding of Fa principles, I started to function in society. Slowly I renewed my acquaintances and got a job. I started to do the exercises and made Fa study a priority. The more I studied the Fa the deeper my understanding became. I saw that the things that people do in society have no real meaning and we are living in the reality based on illusion. I realised that the true goal of being a human is the return to one's true self through cultivation. I didn’t know about the environment of cultivators, and didn’t know about clarifying the truth or sending forth righteous thoughts, but I felt that Master was showing me the way, so I contacted a practitioner from my city and from that time, my cultivation has improved tremendously.

4. True cultivation and clarifying the truth

Since getting to know the environment of cultivators, I’ve never again felt lonely, because I know that there are people who think the same way I do. I understand the importance of doing the three things (clarify the truth, send forth righteous thoughts, study the Fa) we should do and slowly I introduced them into my everyday life. At the beginning I had many obstacles in clarifying the truth to people. I also had a pretty strong attachment to fear. Gradually, through reading the Fa and observing other practitioners I came to understand how to do it and I noticed the relationship between studying the Fa and doing all the other things we, as practitioners, should do. Studying the Fa (the Dao or Way) has great power. When I couldn’t harmonize something or I experienced problems, through studying the Fa I came to understand why it was like that and how to resolve these problems. I also understood that many problems that happen to us have their cause in ourselves. A wonderful tool, which Master bestowed upon us, is looking inside, thanks to which we can find the attachments that restrict us. Once we gradually becoming indifferent to these attachments it will stop restricting us and will be removed. Together with a practitioner from my city we give out flyers to mailboxes in towns outside the city and to residential districts. If we meet people, we clarify the facts directly to them, if not, we leave a flyer in their mailbox. In the city we are also meeting to do exercises in the park. We practise besides informational banners, giving out flyers and clarifying the truth. Passers-by often pay attention to us. Many people express their interest in the practise and regularly, definitively condemn the Chinese Communist Party for Persecuting Falun Gong in China. I feel in my heart how important clarifying the truth is and truly validating the Fa. I try to do it in every favourable moment, although that doesn’t always work out perfectly.

Master said the following words, which have deeply rooted in my heart:
" You fell here from a holy, pure, and incomparably splendid world because you had developed attachments at that level. After falling into a world that is, by comparison, most filthy, instead of cultivating yourself to go back in a hurry, you don’t let go of those filthy things that you cling to in this filthy world, and you even agonize over the most trivial losses. Did you know that in order to save you the Buddha once begged for food among everyday people? Today, I once again make the door wide open, and teach this Dafa to save you. I have never felt bitter for the numerous hardships I have suffered. Then what do you have that still can’t be abandoned? Can you bring to heaven the things deep down inside that you cannot let go of”.
It is often hard to live according to the principles of Truth, Compassion and Tolerance because our attachments can still be strong. That’s why only through solid cultivation, studying the Fa and being diligent and attentive our attachments and other negative things wont restrict our cultivation

5. Conclusion

Looking back, I clearly see the extent my morality had fallen and how lost I was. However I had this wonderful honor and I gained the Fa, for which I am extremely thankful to Master. I don’t want to waste this glorious chance and although I know that there’s a long way ahead of me, I feel that through being diligent and scrupulously doing the things we should do, I will help Master in saving the sentient beings and become a true practitioner.

Thank You Benevolent Master, Thank You Dear Practitioners.